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what if we met somewhere else?

i was laying under the covers and started thinking. what would happen if i didn't end it there.. i was interrupted with my mother knocking on my door. "honey, come downstairs please", she said, her soothing voice being music to my 5 year old ears. i wrapped the blanket around my petite body and went downstairs and my mother smiles and sees me. "how are you feeling, ladybug?", she asked me.

she has always called me ladybug ever since i was small. i see the tv on and there he was.. i looked at my mother and went back to my room. "maria!", she yelled and i slammed the door behind me. why couldn't they understand that i want to get over him. i laid back in bed and tried to fall back asleep.

but instead, i looked at my phone and i see my lockscreen being him. i felt tears well in my eyes and i threw my phone to the other side of the room. no rosa maria, you need to get over him. you HAVE to get over him. "he'll easily get over me, anyway.", i said to myself and tossed and turned.

~xolo~

why can't i get over her? it's been a few months since she left without leaving a note. i stayed at home, not talking to anyone. i've gotten messages from everyone, wondering where i've been. i didn't have the energy to talk to anyone. i haven't been posting on my socials. god, where did i fuck up.. i must've done something wrong for her to run out the way she did.

i got a message from jacob, wondering if i would be fine enough to do our podcast. i tossed the phone and just wrapped myself in my blanket. i look at my lockscreen and there she was. my rose. "we were happy, what happened?", i asked myself and i was hesitating to text her, knowing she will ignore it.. like she did with the past 120 messages. i know she won't answer, but i need an answer as to why she left the way she did.

i heard my phone ringing and i look at it and it was jacob. i sighed and answered. "what happened, jacob", i said. "okay, one, chill with the attitude, i wasn't the one who decided to walk out your life", he said and i sighed. "sorry, too soon?", he said. "what do you think?", i said and he sighed. "are you going to be fine doing the podcast later?", he said. "i really don't think so", i said.

"come on dude.. our listeners are asking for you. they don't know that you're going thru a break-up and i honestly don't know what other lie to come up with", he said, worry laced in his voice. "just say that i'm going thru family issues", i said. "i already said that lie", he said. "then say it again", i said and hung up and flopped on the couch. i started playing a random playlist and the first song that decided to play was ghost of you.

i listen to the song and i sink into the couch even more. "so this is what heartbreak feels like..", i said and looked at the ceiling. i go on instagram and i see my rose there again.. looking as beautiful as ever..

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it was tempting to like her picture. i wouldn't be surprised if she found someone else already. i called jacob and surprisingly he picked up with the first ring. "what's up", he said. "do not start the show without me. i'm heading over there right now", i said and i hung up. i got in my car and drove to his place, trying to not think about rose right now.

~marie rose~

i got out of the room, trying to look for my shoes. "are you going out, linda?", my mom asked. "yes, mother, i'm going out. i won't be back late, but if i do come late, i'll let you know, okay?", i told her. "alright, hun. be careful, please", she said and i nodded. i headed out and saw peyton and mary waiting on me. "and i thought i take forever", mary said and i laughed. "today's the first night i get out of my house, alright, don't blame me", i said and they both laughed.

peyton plugged her phone on the aux and a random song started playing, but i knew the song that was playing. and by the looks on the girls' faces, they knew it too. and they knew how much this song meant to me. "we can change it, if you want", mary said and i nodded. "please, i don't wanna be reminded of him while i'm out with my girls", i said and they smiled at me.

i sunk a little into the seat and peyton started driving towards universal and i smiled wide and they noticed. "wait, have you not been here before?", mary asked and i shook my head. "wow, where did he take you?", peyton asked and laughed a little. "i'd rather stay quiet on that", i said and they looked at each other and they started cackling. i smiled and i see that they finally pulled over to universal and i hopped out the car and ran towards the entrance.

"rose, wait!", mary said and started chasing after me, peyton following behind. "marie!", peyton yelled out and i turn and i see them running towards me. "oops, sorry, i didn't think i was leaving you guys behind", i said and they started laughing. mary's face changed once she laid her eyes on a certain spot. i started to turn and peyton faced me towards her. "oh, rosie. come on, let's go to the park and we'll talk from there", she said and started dragging me to the park, mary following behind.

a few minutes later, we made it to the park and peyton sat me down and mary sat on the opposite side. "look, rose. we didn't want you to see the posters by the movie theater", peyton said. "posters? there was posters?", i asked and they both looked at each other in confusion. "wait, so you're telling me that you didn't see any type of posters by the movie theater?", mary asked. "no? was i supposed to?", i asked and they shook their heads.

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