unanswered || xolo maridueña

ii.

she used to be me, now i'm here crying my eyes out.

i look at my phone and see that he commented on my post. "um, peyton..", i said, my voice coming out shaky. "what happened?", she said. i show her my phone and she sees that he commented on my photo. "okay, what the hell. i thought he said he blocked you?", she said. "he had me blocked?", i asked. "apparently not", she said. "you know you can't trust men when they say they blocked their ex", mary said. peyton sighed and decided to call him. "mary, get rose out of the room", she said and mary dragged me out of the room.

"it's for your own good", mary said and i sighed. i heard him answer the phone and peyton started yelling some profanities at him. "well, this isn't good", i said and mary agreed.

~peyton~

i was waiting for him to answer, so i started pacing around rose's room. "hello?", he answered. "okay, what the actual fuck dude", i told him. "what did i do now?", he asked. "don't be stupid, shitface. why the fuck are you trying to crawl back into her life?", i asked and he stayed quiet for a cool minute. "hello?? i don't have all day", i said and i heard him sigh. "all i wanted was answers", he said.

"answers for what?", i asked. i was curious as to why they ended so abruptly. she never really explained why they ended. she just told me that she moved back with her mom. she never really updated us with anything ever since she was with xolo. "answers to why she left", he said and hung up. "what?", i said to myself. i walked out and saw rose on her phone, staring at the comment this dumbass left on her post.

"rose, let's go out", i said. "go out where, it's literally 9 pm", she said, her eyes glued to her screen still. "just anywhere. you can't be here glued to your phone, staring at that boy's comment", i said. "what did he tell you", she asked. i hesitated on answering her question. "yeah, what did he say?", mary asked. "well.. he just wanted answers to why you left him", i finally said. rose stayed quiet and went outside.

"why doesn't she wanna say why she left him?", i asked mary. "well it's her choice to why she doesn't wanna say. we can't pry it off her", mary said. "just give her time. she'll tell us when she's ready", she said and went to rose.

~rose~

i sat on the steps in front of my house and hugged my legs tight. i felt tears in my eyes and i heard the door open. "hey rosie", mary said and sat next to me. "hey, mousey", i said and gave her a small smile. she gives me a hug and i started crying. "oh, my rosie. what happened between you two", she whispered. "he wouldn't understand, mary. he wasn't going to be able to understand. he won't understand why i left", i finally said.

"rosie, can you tell me why you're saying that?", she said. "i was getting so much hate for dating him. like his happiness didn't matter to his fans. like my feelings weren't valid", i said. "is that why you left him?", she asked and i nodded. "oh, petal.. i'm so sorry you had to deal with that", she said. "it's okay, mousey. he didn't need to deal with me", i said. "but rosie, it's clear as day that he still loves you", mary said and i looked at her.

"i don't want him to love me anymore. i want him to move on, live his life with someone equally as famous as him. i want him to date someone that has a lot of things in common with him", i said. mary couldn't help but sigh sadly. "do you still love him?", she asked. i gave her a sad laugh as tears kept coming down. "mary.. i will always love him.. there's no doubt in my mind that i do.. but.. he can honestly have anyone he wants", i said.

"but have you thought about if he doesn't want to be with anybody but you?", mary said and i sighed. "no i didn't.. but i don't want to", i said and got up and went to my room and slammed the door. i opened up to mary, but not peyton. nice.. "okay girls, i think rosie needs her space right now", i heard my mom tell the girls. i heard their footsteps fade away and i started crying. "why can't i get over you?", i said to myself and i fell asleep.