I'd Risk My All (Olegie and Sebryan from NSB)

23. being the skin the knife tears through

Fahrenheit - Azee

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When Oliver first found out he had a thing for Regie, he felt everything he once thought he knew crumble down, and new feelings, and thoughts erupt. It was a terrifying experience for him to have to go through such a thing he recognized as an identity crisis, it wasn't what he wanted, but he learned to deal with it.

He couldn't really make heads or tails of what really made him fall for Regie, besides the fact that a ship video ended up changing his entire view on Regie. He started to pay attention to the more minor details of Regie, and after over two months of pondering on it, he found out he did indeed like Regie. 

He suffered in silence when he heard Regie talk about someone that wasn't him. He wanted to be the one Regie bragged about, he wanted to be the one that Regie was proud of having sex with. And while he did get what he wanted, eventually, it ended up being something that was purely lust, and everything that Regie whispered, every jar of sweet nothings ended up dissipating, because that what they truly meant. Nothing.

Seeing Regie and Seraya's body laid up together made him feel a word beyond betrayal, he wasn't even sure if what he felt was even a word that existed. The only words he could conjure up was,

"You lied to me."

That was it. He didn't give Regie the time of day to even explain, it didn't seem he would get the chance to either, because he ended up colliding with a car, and ended up being in a coma for over a week.

He woke up with the boys pestering him, Sebastian waking up right next to him, but no Regie. Did he really not feel any remorse? Was he really just that much of a toy for Regie to play with, and nothing more?

The thoughts overflowed his brain. A tear streamed down his eyes, he hadn't really paid attention to how much it hurt, until he had nothing to distract himself.

He was now back at the house, and he was to attend more meetings, do more videos, even go on tour. Those should've been distracting enough for him, but for some weird reason they weren't. 

He still felt that empty feeling, he still felt how deafening it was. And he wished for nothing more, but to have such a feeling abolished.

Manager Ty took note of how Oliver had been overworking himself, and he felt concerned, He'd done this, but it was never as intense as it was now.

"Oliver, I think you should take a break. You're overworking yourself too much. This isn't healthy for you. You just got out of the hospital, I don't need you going back so soon." Ty said with his eyebrows furrowed in worry.

"Ty, I'm good bro. Promise." Oliver reassured with an affirming smile.

"You sure? If you need a break I can-" Ty's words were cut short when he heard his phone ring.

When he answered the phone, it was Darren who called, when Ty got the news, his face dropped with his eyes widening in worry. Oliver didn't know what was happening. 

"Are you sure? Yeah. Yeah, okay." Ty soon after hung up the phone and put on a jacket and some pants.

"Ty, what happened?"

"Regie. He overdosed."

Oliver felt his world shatter. He heard his heart drop, and he felt his head pound.