Utopia ♡ Ateez OT8

FOURTEEN: insomnia 🔞

🔞MATURE CONTENT🔞

I lay in bed, staring at the window. I can hear the occasional car passing down below. A week has passed since the meeting and work was busy. I was also struggling to sleep. The guys have their final promotion schedule the following day and then thankfully have a few days off before rehearsals for the tour and upcoming kcons begin. Despite seeing each other every day at home and at work, we had all been busy that we had barely spent any quality time together. Seonghwa, Yunho, Hongjoong, San and Wooyoung were going to see their families for a couple of days while Yeosang, Mingi and Jongho were staying in Seoul. My parents and sisters were also arriving in a couple of days, too, and I was looking forward to seeing them.

I sigh and give in. I accept that sleep is not coming anytime soon so I throw my cover off me and get out of bed. I open my bedroom door and make my way to the kitchen. The entire apartment is quiet. Everyone is asleep. Oh, how I envy them. I bitterly envy everyone who is in the land of nod right now while I am wide awake but absolutely exhausted at the same time!

I get some milk from the fridge and pour it into a saucepan. I am hoping some warm milk might help me get sleepy. As I wait for it to heat, I check my phone. There is a message from Soojin. I smile as I open it. It is a simple 'I love you', but it melts my heart. I quickly reply that I love her too and that I can't wait to see her.

I settle onto the sofa with my mug of warm milk and switch the tv on, turning the volume down. I pull the throw over the back of the sofa over myself. I scroll aimlessly through Netflix trying to find something that would lull me to sleep. I don't even know what I've put on, as I am more focused on scrolling through my phone.

"Can't sleep?" I hear Yeosangs deep voice ask softly from the doorway, giving me a fright as I hadn't heard him come down the stairs.

"Nope." I answer, sitting upright and switching the tv off with the remote. "I didn't wake you up, did I?"

"of course not. I didn't know you were even awake until I got into the hallway and saw the light on." He says, coming into the lounge. He is wearing a black tank top and loose red and black plaid pj bottoms.

"You can't sleep either?" I ask as he shakes his head and runs a hand through his dark hair. I can see how tired he is in his face. Yeosang is naturally pale, but I can't help notice how much paler he looks than normal. It worries me, as I know how hard they are all working right now, both physically and mentally. "Want to cuddle?"

I open the side of my blanket and pat the space beside me. He smiles and comes over. I can feel how tense his body is as he lays down beside me. He tucks me into his side, my head resting on his chest as his arms wrap around me. Usually our cuddles are fleeting as there is always someone around and normally in the kitchen or hallway. It feels nice to be actually lying down to hug him, no fear of interruptions or someone walking in. I feel him place a kiss on the crown of my head, causing me to look up at him.

"I've missed you." he sighs

"Me too." I reply. "About you, I mean. Obviously, I don't miss myself!" This causes him to chuckle and I can feel his deep laugh vibrate in his chest. I cautiously rest my leg on top of his and immediately he pulls me closer, his right hand holds onto my left. His other hand resting on my lower back, his fingers making soft circles through my shirt. I feel the tension in his body lessen.

"Anything in particular keeping you awake?" He asks as his fingers play with mine.

"Just a little bout of insomnia." I answer, resting my head back on his chest and looking down at our hands as my fingers playback with his. "What about you?"

"Wooyoung is talking in his sleep." He answers.

"Woo is a sleep talker?" I laugh. The fact he talks in his sleep when the man talks a lot when he is awake is funny to me.