Hey, I was writing this to myself
to look back on to reminisce.
I know it’ll never get to you, while you’re always in
My heart, wondering if you thought of me
How I thought of you,
Did you have feelings or was I one-sided to you?
I still have the picture of all of us together.
It haunts me ‘cause you’re not who I remember.
I saw your brothers recently, seems they're doing good.
Is your mother, just like us--misunderstood?
She was always so fun, putting on that smile.
But there you were, faking along,
broken and wrong,
just like I had thought.
I had accidentally flirted for the first time, it was wrong.
Probably went unnoticed,
I bet you have had secret girlfriends.
But they’ve never been like me,
Because I’m different and lonely,
and tough-starved and crowded in my head.
You were kind, you were bold
You were confident, catastrophic, and wouldn’t be told
No, you had your finger wrapped around her and we all knew it.
But I was confused
because you acted as you did to her to me too.
I meant what I did, no underlying jealousy
It was to protect us, I made a promise and I went through.
Did you have feelings or was I one-sided to you?
One-sided to you
I don’t care if I don't see you again,
Wait! I didn’t mean what I said.
I need to see you, I need to meet you
To get you out of my head.
Maybe we can be friends, yeah
I don’t wanna play pretend
Anymore, inside my head, my head, my head
Am I one-sided to you?
He said, ‘you need to leave,’
You replied, ‘not now yet,’
She said something I misheard,
I regret I thought she said you were staying for me--
See! I’m all stuck up here,
I’m dying.
I didn’t mean to mishear,
it embarrassed me
I’m glad I asked her after to confirm I was wrong.
I’m kinda glad to be wrong.
I’m really glad to be wrong.
