There's Things That I Want To Say To You *But*I'll*Just*Let*You*Live*

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You don't know how mean you guys have been to me you don't even try to listen to the things I want to talk about neither do you ever try to pick up conversations with me unless you have no one to talk to I have so much to say about things that I like but you're like mmm hmm either judging me for what I like my opinions and even my preferences ,I do not think there is anything negative about disliking a certain type of cookies like I am not a optimistic person and I know that I am negative all the time but what am I to do I feel like a puppet tied by chains by the ankles and I do what I do so I won't get hurt you think I should have never ghosted and blocked my classmates I was never their friend I only became close to them because I at least wanted my supposed best times actually best times but you wouldn't get it would you you guys befriended people who grew up similarly and it was fine for you but it wasn't for me my classmates had different povs no personality whatsoever do not even what is available in their city I wanted to change schools because I wanted better friends, I was made fun of but uh the thing is um I was too god damn depressed that I didn't even notice or heard what they were saying it's hilarious tbh the thought they were highly superior by belittling me but they were below deep within the ground than me because I am not them straightening my hair till there's none left trying to have a boyfriend and feel like oh I'm so pretty one thing I have learned that you should love yourself first than somebody else because when you love you are giving a pizza slice  of yourself but you have to have a whole complete pizza to give a pizza slice the only thing I regret about school life is that I didn't make any good friend or friends that could make me laugh until my stomach hurts I always think that because I have done something wrong