SHANNON
Today is the day that I will be going with Frey to the photo gallery. Maaga akong nagising para makapaghanda. Frey is also an art enthusiast, she loves photography pero hindi niya ito hobby. Gusto niya lang makakita ng mga litrato dahil para sa kaniya everytime na makikita niya ang mga ito feeling niya siya na rin ang taong nakakita nito sa aktuwal na pangyayari and that is we call Immersion. She felt the deep emotion and story behind the picture.
Kinuha ko sa higaan ang aking cellphone na nakacharge at tinanggal ito. There are few messages it is from Frey and my father. Yesterday's events left me exhausted and I was hoping to rest when I got home. Unfortunately, my father called and we had a lot to talk about. Parang paulit-ulit ang pag-uusap namin na walang katapusan. He just found out that I moved out of our house and scolded me for not informing him or my stepmother at that time.
I didn't feel the need to inform him or my stepmother since we are not close, and I don't appreciate the way my stepmother treated me back in college after my father divorced my mother. Naiwan kasi ako sa puder ni papa at mainit ang dugo ng bago niyang napangasawa sa akin, kahit na nasa iisang bubong kami ay pinaparamdam niya sa akin na ako pa ang outsider sa bahay na iyon. Madalas kasing wala si papa dahil sa trabaho nito kaya naman dalawa lang kami kasama ang mga katulong.
College was a difficult time for me, and I was going through a rebellious phase. Pakiramdam ko noon ay susuko na ako dahil walang nakakaintindi sa akin. I had my own problems, but no one in my family was able to provide me with comfort.
My family did not support me in my profession or recognize my talent. Si papa gusto niya akong pakuhanin ng business related course para daw makatulong ako sa business niya. Si mama naman mula noong naghiwalay sila ni papa ay nawalan na din ako ng contact sa kaniya. Sinabayan pa ito ng madrasta ko na pinaparamdam na sampid at palamunin lang ako. I started to feel alone in this world drowning in endless problems.
That's why I sought comfort from someone else which is my biggest regret.
To get ready, I took a shower as I needed to meet Frey at a coffee shop to have breakfast with her. Medyo naguguilty pa rin ako sa ginawang pagsisinungaling kahapon. I was dragging her into my own mess.
I am wearing casual clothes, it's a plain white blouse and black pants. I choose to wear round navy flat shoes. Nakatingin ako sa salamin at sinusuri ang itsura.
'You look good'
Napangiti naman ako, simple lang naman ako manamit dahil hindi ako yung tipo ng tao na laging lumalabas. Even though I am not in the mood to go out, I feel like I should not cancel since we already agreed to it and it was difficult to get tickets for the event. Nakakahiya naman kay Frey kung biglaan akong magbaback out.
Once I was ready, I met Frey at the designated place and talked to her about what happened at the reunion. She was shocked to hear that Luca was back and it creeped her out when I told her about what Luca had said to me.
"Girl, you shouldn't meet that woman at any cost!" she said, worriedly. Tumango naman ako.
Wala naman akong intensyon na makipagkiita kay Luca at hinihiling ko rin nga na sana hindi na kailanman magkrus ang aming landas but I had a feeling she might bother me in the future. Luca was stubborn and wouldn't back down on anything she couldn't get, and I found her attitude annoying. Mapilit siyang tao, hangga't hindi niya nakukuha ang gusto ay hindi siya titigil.
As I took my last sip of coffee, may naalala ako na dapat gawin. I decided to confess to Frey that I had used her name.
"Frey, there's something I need to tell you," I said. Hinanda ko na ang sarili ko kung sakali man na magalit siya sa akin.
