M. K. B.'s Life Journal (Not A Book)

Entry 51 - May 2023

Entry 51 - May 2023

Date: 1/5/2023
Another Month

Determined to start writing again, maybe growing my hair and finally clearing up my skin. Trying to save money. It's a new month. I could start fresh. Sigh. I probably won't do none of that. Time's running out on me. Sigh.

Date: 6/5/2023
Shit Happens

This week turned for the worse, it feels like. I'm not ok, mentally, health wise and emotionally. Also I think I'm done begging this man for effort, I don't know anymore. He's the only person keeping me together though. I honestly love him, but he's still not ready for a relationship which is sad at his big age. I just want to spend time with him but he's just not. Me reacting to his lack of effort is the only time I get effort anymore. I'm exhausted. He uses his finances as an excuse, then his mental health. But I'm going through the same thing and still want to prioritize him. Men are trash.
I need to write a book and publish it to make some extra money. Money will be my boyfriend 🤷🏽‍♀️
Wrote this on all my published works on here:
Author's Note

So, something happened this week and it has affected me way more than I initially thought. I'm not coping well at all.
My financial situation also isn't where I'd like it to be. I'm returning to finish school in a few months so will have to look for cheap places to stay.
Despite these things, I still have intentions of finishing these books I started as a teenager, but I also hope to start writing new things. To hell with my writers' block. One day at a time and I will finish.
Hopefully people actually want to read my crap again.
Also if anyone knows exactly how to publish on amazon as a citizen of Trinidad and Tobago, as well as any other thing attached to that like how and if I'll be taxed and what not, I would greatly appreciate as much info as one can provide. As well as how to get a working PayPal account as a citizen of T&T.

Date: 16/5/2023
Up, Down

My skin seems to be doing better which really made me happy for a second. My mood's been pretty down otherwise, especially since my guy seems to be down mentally as well. I wish I could help him.

Got a strange offer a couple days ago that I'm considering.

Date: 31/5/2023
Money Woes

So I'm pretty sure an entry is missing here but whatever. The offer seems to have disappeared and so it probably was a scam. I need money tho.

Time to get writing again. I just can't seem to find the time. I wonder if I can find a cyber sugar daddy. Sigh.