Entry 22 - September to November 2020
Update: Been in virtual school and working as an essential worker. My "crush" is my best friend which is really nice, still kinda hurts, but we're really solid but with a situationship like thing on the side. One minute I want to stop but it's hard so I flip flop on it and it's basically a part of our friendship. It feels unhealthy but we communicate really well but I leave stuff out so he doesn't know my full feelings and doesn't like that I'm sad in our friendship sometimes and he just wants to fix it, but he can't. Maybe one day, things will get better, or I'll get a boyfriend and it will no longer be an issue. I hate how connected I am to him, like I can't let him go or leave him alone.
Update 2: We're just friends, I think. Tryna distance ourselves. It hurts so much, I feel like I ran out of tears. I feel empty. I really wish things were different.
Update 3: Idk what's going on anymore. I have exams to worry about.
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