Killua x reader oneshots!

Killua (ex assassin) x suicidal reader 🥀/🌹

Killua had gone to the store quickly for pads, as requested by Y/N. Though This was only a distraction from what they had planned. It was only a few days after Gon, Killua and Y/N got hotels at Heavens arena. Gon was busy Training at the gym downstairs, so this was their moment. This was the opening.
You can do this.
Y/N stood in the bathroom, shaking, knife in hand.
They held the knife close to their throat, moving in and out of consciousness because of panic.
Stop hesitating. It'll hurt more if you hesitate.
They pulled the knife away and sighed out. Y/N took a drink of water out of the faucet, then rinsed their face. They thought about all of the things that brought them to this point.
I don't want to live anymore, so why am I so scared. It can't just be pain..can it?
They picked the knife back up and took a long, shaky, deep breath.
You can do this.
3..
2..
1...
Suddenly Y/N heard the door open. They dropped the knife on their thigh, causing them to yelp.
"Hey Y/N, I got your.. things." He awkwardly spoke.
Y/N fell to the floor as tears began to flood out their eyes. It wasn't the fact that a knife went though their leg, it wasn't the fact that it hurt terribly bad, it wasn't even the fact that it would take months to heal, it was that killua would have to see them like this. Scars up and down their arms and legs, he would know, that's what made them cry.
"Y/N?" Killua shouted. He began to worry. "Y/N..?" He walked into their room, seeing the bathroom light on, door closed. "Are you in there Y/N?" He heard small whimpers, crying, and his heart began to race. "Let me in, please, what's wrong?" He started to pound on the door.
"I-I'm fine killua!" Y/N forced everything in them to not sound in pain, but failed. Killua didn't question anything, he picked the lock and walked in, peering down at the floor to see blood splatter and Y/N's leg with a knife sticking out. He gasped, picking them up and setting them on the counter.
"It's okay, I'm gonna help you.. your gonna be okay I promise." He grabbed bandage, and pressed his hand on the knife.
"This is going to hurt.." he pulled the knife out, then began to wrap the wound. He looked in the fully stalked cabinet and found numbing agent. He stabbed their wound with the needle, relief tracing Y/N's heart. Killua looked at them, seeing blood not only coming from their leg but their arms as well. Cuts lined their entire body in fact, that's when killua connected the dots.
Y/N with a knife, in the bathroom, stabbed in the leg, cuts all over.. his eyes began to flood with tears.
"Killua I'm sorry I—"
"Don't apologize!" He hugged them. "Please talk to me next time." He squeezed them, not too tight.
"I'm sorry I didn't think you would listen.. or.. i didn't think you cared." They sniffled.
"Y/N.. I Care. I Care about you more then you could ever imagine. You matter to me, you matter to not only me but gon, to kurpika, to leorio and everyone else we have met along the way. Hell, you matter to just about everyone here." He sobbed. "Your the most amazing person I've ever met, Y/N. I love you so much, I wouldn't be here if I didn't care. I want you to know that I'm always here to listen, I'm always here for you. No matter what. You mean everything to me. You can always make something good out of a lot of bad, and I can help with that. If there's anything I can do, I'll do it."

"I.. I love you too, thank you, killua."

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-664 words, also I didn't proof read this so that might be why it doesn't look great. I'll proof read it soon.