Aaron
I've had a pretty shit day. This is why I am drowning myself in alcohol, I dragged the guys here. I'm pretty sure they hate me right now and to be honest I hate myself right now as well. There's a girl with fake blonde hair and brown eyes sitting on my lap trying to get my attention, but all I can think about is the main reason I came here. The girl I think her name is Tara is clicking her fingers in my face still trying to get me to focus. My attention is brought back to cara? I don't know if I'm too pissed. She leans forward until she gets close enough to my ear, so close I can feel her lips brush against it. "You seem distracted, how about I take your mind off things ?" I agree with the statement. Our hands come together as she leads me upstairs.
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Ah fuck my head hurts, my mouth is dry and my clothes are off also, wait where the fuck are my clothes. For god's sake, I can't keep doing this. I look down at a long bony arm draped across my stomach. It's fucking Tara, Of course i screwed fucking Tara. I shuffle my hand around the bed to find my phone and a bloody shirt. 15 missed calls, 27 new messages, 10 voicemails, well if I wasn't in enough shit, I'm in even deeper shit. I yank her arm off me with a disgusted shrivel, Just can't wait for this to spread throughout the school, fuck speaking of school I'm supposed to be there right now. Jumping out of bed I swipe a pair of sweats and a shirt and grab my shoes from last night and get the hell out of there.
I've just barely made it to school anyway. "YOOO bro whatcha doing with Tara Samson last night?" my luck "I don't fucking know okay" I mumble angrily, I walk away without another word. I have French class first with Neveah and Val. Mr shrawn is a cranky old dick who is divorced because he had an affair with another teacher. "bonjour petits diables, aujourd'hui c'est votre tâche d'écriture, elle doit être terminée d'ici la fin de la leçon"
Great. "Neveah" I softly whisper as she pretends she doesn't hear me. "neveah " I whisper a little louder this time, yet again ignored. Well shit she must have seen the photos from last night. I'm double screwed as Val gives me a look that sends me into my shell never to come out again. Remind me never to mess with them ever. French is now over and Mr Shrawn has grown a few more stress wrinkles, and it's now time to head to science.
Science is going substantially well, that was until Tara the she devil turned up to my lab bench. "Hey so Aaron, when do you want to meet up" she asks seductively, "Never, what happened was a mistake and it will never ever happen again. From this moment onward you will not make eye contact with me, breathe the same air as me, or contact me ever again and if you do I swear you will not see daylight ever again ". The mortified look on her face was all the satisfaction I needed but not for Neveah. She was looking at us with a sad expression on her face.
She turns around and quickly moves out of the classroom, "Neveah, wait please" I shout at her hoping that she will stop and give me a chance. But the stubborn girl she is, she doesnt stop, just moves even quicker. I have to do something.
"Valerie please, where is she" I ask as I run to keep with her, "You picked the worst fucking day to do this, you know?" what? My non answer makes her hate me even more now. "Dick" she mutters under her breath, Yeah I deserve that. Lately I've been such a dick to my teachers, family, friends and I don't even know why. Maybe it's time to visit them, I haven't in such a long time. Maybe the reason why I haven't gone is because I refuse to be vulnerable, I refuse to revisit the part of my past I no longer wish to know.
I make my way home on the bus as my car is being serviced. Walking through the front doors I hear faint giggles and gurgles, from the one and only theo.Zara is playing peek a boo with him, swooping him into my arms i blow a kiss onto his little nose. Zara tries her hardest to give me a glare but it breaks out into a smile at the scene unfolding in front of her eyes. Dominic her boyfriend emerges into the room with his usual bright smile, it gets even bigger when he sees Zara, the love of his life. He gives a long kiss onto her lips, ew "Excuse me, baby and brother over here. Get a room, please and thank you" she sticks her tongue out at me but everlast they continue. PG 13 thank you very much. I waltz out of the room and into mine, "Hey little guy, how's your day been?" I coo "Aaroum, greet day" he tries to speak but is having a little trouble that's all.
I just put theo down to sleep, it's now my turn to sleep but my mind has other ideas. So many thoughts and ideas running 1000 km/hr, it sucks you in until you no longer can handle it and you spiral, which is what is happening right now. My world is spinning, the thoughts jumble all together. A mush of letters and numbers, lights, the lights are too bright too bright. My feet topple over one another, I land on the ground with a thud but everything is blurry or compressed in a way where all I hear is nothing. A pause before chaos wrecks havoc in my sense. They're working in overdrive, too much, it's all too much. A thousand bricks lay flat on my head, I want to scream.
Frantic voices can be heard all around but I choose to stay in this violent peace. Stars, all I see is glowing gold stars.
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hey guys so thats the next chapter, i've been writing all them at once so i forgot to publish them. but i'm editing the next two so yeah. Feedback is welcome but do not talk negatively about my book xxx see you whenever
- Juney xx
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