I will destroy this novel (wmmap)

This time I'll be honest with you

lucille woke up in unfamiliar room,she stode up from her bed and went to wash her face. she brushed her hair wore her dress, after that she took a walk inside the palace.

Violet palace was being prepared so lucille stayed in claude palace until it done. lucille was humming while walking until. "your highness!" she heard a familiar voice.

"oh, mr felix, good morning" lucille said. "good morning your highness" felix said as he smiled sincerely. "did you sleep well?" felix asked. "yes, from your actions you must be happy" felix nodded and said. "his majesty, is taking care of you directly, his majesty is caring about you deeply"

when lucille heard that she felt sick in her stomach, she felt like throwing up.
' If he cares about me,then why all the time he ignored me in my previous lives he didn't treat me like his daughter, you may think he cares about me but these thing is  temporary, one day he will take everything from me and throw me in the slime.'

Lucille looked away and started walking, that made felix confused so he followed her. lucille frowned, thinking about it more and more made her more sick.

'in my fifth life I died when I tried to help athanasia from her mana explosion, did you know what happened at that time"

lucille pov

In my fifth life, I did spend time with claude and I became closer with him than my third and fourth lives, he took care of me, he cared about me, or that what I thought.

"can I pet him?"  jeannette said while smiling sweetly. "yes, of course!" athanasia said as she smiled back. Jeannette patted blacky head softly, I knew this scene but I didn't want to destroy the plot so I stayed a side.

Then it happened Athanasia, my little sister, she spurted blood from her mouth, even though I knew this would happen. I rushed for her, and I couldn't leave her, even knowing that she would live.

Now to think about it, I was so kind and fool.

a strong light appeared, me and athanasia was in the middle of explosion, I used my mana to stop her mana explosion and reduce damage,too be honest I wasn't sure that I will success but at least I wanted to save her,learning magic from locus was only way to protect my self and people around me. Fortunately, I success with it but I got the damage that athanasia should get, I felt I was burning inside I felt sick.

then I saw him, claude he was running toward us, I thought he was going to help me so I raised my hand asking for help and said. "papa, it's hurting me, please help... me" while I was saying this he ran passed me toward athanasia, that made me shocked, he was only looking at her he didn't look at me, I was completely hopeless and sad.

I was looking at him while he was trying to heal my sister."she is alright" claude said in relief. of course she is after all I saved her.but I'm the one who need treats,after all I was dying with no one to help me.

Felix also, he was with her,they didn't help me I was disappointed with them I asked my self am I not good enough? what does athanasia has and I don't have? why I'm the only one who should suffer? these questions ran in head in my last moments. My vision started to deteriorate little by little, in my last moment I gathered all my stamina and said to them.

"In the end, you don't care about me, is it because she is diana's daughter, or because You think I'm not your daughter,what did I do to you,father?" even though I said it in low voice they heard me, they looked at me as I said. "I hate papa, in my next life I won't be a perfect daughter, I won't look at you again"