NAKA upo ako sa veranda ng two story house ko. Inaantay ko ang reply ni Greyson. Habang naka tutok ang mga mata ko sa cellphone, nakatulala ako nang hindi mapansing naka reply na sya. Agad kong binasa ang sinabi nya sa text.
Greyson:
"Faith. We both talked about this. Hindi na natin pwedeng ipagpatuloy ang relasyon natin. Alam mo naman ang rason diba? Tumigil kana. Please."
Nung nabasa ko ang reply nya ay agad akong nasaktan. How can he leave me like this? Parang wala kaming pinagsamahan. In our relationship i was the boyfriend. I was the one who always put effort in everything. Wala syang ka effort effort sa relasyon namin. Halos ako lahat ang magplano, mag desisyon. Pero i couldn't blame him, it was his first relationship. Wala syang experience.
Pero sana nag pakita naman sya ng pake at effort sakin, i mean he was there for me, but not on everything.
I replied to his text.
Me:
"Grey, please. One more chance. I can't live without you."
As I've sent the message tears started pouring on my cheeks and i began to cry silently, laying my body on the cold hard floor.
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I woke up feeling my back and head sore. I realized na naka tulog na pala ako sa veranda kakaiyak. I sighed heavily and got up and went inside.
As i began walking i checked my phone if Greyson replied to my text last night. When i saw there was no message from, him i felt empty. Alam kong nabasa nya ang message ko pero hindi ako nireplyan. I know he was tired of me, but i still kept chasing for him because i love him so much. If only he loved me the way i love him...things would've been better.
I put my phone on the counter top of my kitchen and went to grab an apron. Kailangan kong maging independent, i cant put myself down because of a man. I tried motivating myself so i could atleast do something productive instead of laying on my bed and cry. Kumuha ako ng non-stick pan and inilagay ko sa stove, i heated the pan. Im making eggs today.
Pagkatapos kong mag luto ay nag timpla ako ng kape at agad ng kumain. I wanna go to the gym today so i could take my mind off depressed things. Nung naubos ko na ang pagkain ay umakyat nako sa kwarto ko at nag bihis. I wore a sports bra and leggings. And tied my hair into a high ponytail at nag suot narin ako ng headband.
I went down and wore my sneakers then went out. Mabilis akong nag lakad papunta sa kotse ko at agad akong nag drive.
While i was driving, i noticed an old man sitting on the side of the road. He looked like he hadn't eaten for days, he was dirty, wearing clothes with holes.
I didnt hesitate to park my car beside the road and approached him.
"Hi po tay', may problema ho ba tayo?"
Nung nakita nya ako he smiled.
"Ah, wala naman ho. Gutom na gutom lang kasi ako. Kaso wala akong pera para maka bili ng kakainin."
Nung narinig ko ang sinabi nya ay nalungkot ako. I can't stand it when old people live in poverty. I wanna give them my everything while they still have the time to live, they don't deserve such terrible lives.
"Sige ho tay', ano pong gusto nyo? Ako na ho ang bibili para sainyo."
I said while smiling warmly.
He started crying, as if he was trying to hold back his tears from the very beginning.
While he was crying i approached him and held his hand.
"Tay', huwag na po kayong mag alala, may makakain na po kayo ngayon. Tara po at bibili tayo."
