All I Want

Kabanata 1

I waved at him with a big smile as he walks towards me here in our school's cafeteria.

"Here, kumain na tayo, ipinagluto kita!" I said energetically as he arrived in front of me. He then proceed to sit in front of me and said his thanks to me.

"How about us naman,Ilah?  Di mo kami pinagluto? Parang di kaibigan ha." I immediately recognized my friend's high pitched voice, ranting.  She's Trixie, the jolly and playful girl our group, together with our other friends Eris, Lilith and Leif.

We are all in our 4the year of college already, with the three of us in business management course, Me, Casimir and Trixie. Lilith is in Architecture, Eris and Leif meanwhile took engineering.

"You don't like home cooked meals naman, you're more onto fastfoods diba? " I said pouting.

"Yeah, Whatever" Trixie blurted out before they all took a seat and eat their lunchs.

I then looked at Casimir, admiring him as he eats, I also started to eat mine.

"You really do cook good, little Ilah, but hindi ka ba napapagod? Specially I think you wake up early just to cook for me, I love it but I don't want you tired"

Even the way he speaks makes my heart crazy, I can't help but feel special with the way he treats me. I can't help but assume on things whenever he's like this.

"Ahh, hindi naman, alam mong hobby ko na rin ang magluto"

He never fails to amuse me in anyway, maybe this is all the reason why I pursue Business Management huh? Instead of Culinary, like what my hearts desires? But nevertheless, this is all worth it.

"Maybe next time ako naman ang magluto para sayo? I'm not sure with my cooking skill though." He said while laughing.

"Hindi naman kailangan at gusto ko rin itong ginagawa ko para sayo."

My friends then looked at me meaningfully, ofcourse they knew what I am feeling for Casimir, I don't know with Casimir though if he already knows, I mean he can't be so naive right?

"This is why you are so adorable in my eyes, little Ilah"He then pinched my cheeks.

"Sibat na ko 'tol, sakit niyo mata, kadiri gago." Umirap ako kaagad kay Leif, epal talaga ang isang 'to, kung kailan naman nagiging sweet na si Casimir saka sisingit.

"Edi umalis ka, wala namang may pake sa presensya mo rito." I said harshly.

"Ouch, syempre ako to eh kaya wala kang pake, pero pag kay ano tsk-tsk-tsk"

My friends immediately laugh and I can't help but get more irritated, kasi paano kung makuha ni Casimir yung sinasabi niya? Nakakahiya! I mean gusto kong malaman ni Casimir yung nararamdaman ko pero hindi sa ganitong paraan! Leif can really make my blood boil, as always!

Tuluyan na nga siyang umalis, probably makikipaglandian lang with his new found girl sa likod ng Engineering Building nila kaya nagmamadali.

"Have you heard what happened the the playgirl in the Artscies, guys?  I heard she was almost sexual harrased ah?  By one of her profs? " Lilith said out of nowhere.

"What?!" Casimir almost shouted so loud, I was shook with his reaction.

"Really? I didn't know. Kailan nangyari?" Trixie asked.

"Bakit siya muntikang maharass?  Paano nangyari? Did the told the authorities about it? What did the Dean's said about it?  Is she okay?" Sunod-sunod at mabilis na talong ni Casimir, tila ba alalang-alang.

Does she knew the girl personally? Pero I have never seen them pa naman na magkasama?  Why is Casimir worried about her? Or maybe this is a natural human reaction to these kind of news? Maybe, after all we tend to react impulsively on the negative things we hear or happens to us.

But seeing him worried about another girl aside from me, makes my stomach churn, I can't understand what am I feeling. I feel like I want to vomit or what am I seeing now makes me uncomfortable.

"I don't really know, but I heard there are some authorities daw eh, I feel like they will not let it pass.

And still seeing Casimir uneasy made my heart clench in pain.

The rest of our lunch time, I spent it quietly as Casimir, Trixie and Lilith still talks about the girl.

And that rest of the time also, Casimir never turned his again to me, I feel like he forgot that I was there too. I am there but  forgotten.

And when the bell rings as sign of our dismissal, I did wait for him in the waiting area as he always drives me home.

But half an hour passed, no Casimir showed up, I tried to text and call him but it seems like he's busy.

I waited again.

But an hour and half passed, I'm still alone.

I am here but forgotten.