Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
My alarm went off and I turned it off quickly not waking anyone up. I shuffled off the couch and into the bathroom to brush my teeth, wash my face, do my make-up and fix up my hair. I decided to leave my hair down in hopes people are less likely to see my face. Then I put my headphones in and shuffled my playlist "Im Surrounded But Alone" on spotify and the song Tek It came on. It perfectly describes how I feel.
"I watch the moon,
let it run my mood,
cant stop thinking of you,
I watch you,
so long nice to know you,
Ill be moving on"
I've got to get over sam and colby. Seeing them cuddling this morning broke my heart. They like eachother. Neither of them like me. I can't belive I thought either of them would. That's probably why they came out together. They probably are already together.
"You,
yeah I always know the truth,
but I can't just say it to you,
yeah I know the truth
I knew,
yeah I always know the truth,
but I can't just say it to you,
yeah I know the truth"
I knew it and I ignored my gut. At this point I started tearing up.
"I never thought we'd see it through,
I never could rely on you,
and few times your face came into view,
into view,
i'm not into you,
into you"
Then someone knocked on the door. I wipe my tears and look myself in the mirror.
"You okay?"
It was sam. He cares yeah, but he isnt into me. Im no more than his friend. He said he liked colby. He did not mention me.
"Yeah" I respond trying not to break down again. He must have heard the pain in my voice because he said he was coming in.
"What the hell happened?" He wispered into my ear while pulling me into a hug, sending shivers down my spine as I inhaled his sent. He must have felt them because he started rubbing my back.
"You ready to tell me what that was about?"
"Sorry sam but I don't think I ever will." I said between sniffles. Sam looked at me hurt.
"What why?!" He said loud enough to wake up the others. Colby came running and rubbing his eyes. I mental roll my eyes. Of course he ran for sam. He is such a heavy sleeper im supprised he heard.
