𝑫𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒍𝒐𝒔𝒕 𝒊𝒏 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒏|𝒈𝒐𝒓𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒂𝒛 𝒙 𝒚/𝒏|𝑯𝒂𝒓𝒆𝒎

"𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒅𝒆𝒔𝒆𝒓𝒗𝒆 𝒃𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓"

Russel and Murdoc chapter-angst and fluff

Tw:abusive relationship,panic attacks etc
(Quick reminder I don't support drug-taking it's just for story sake.)

Y/n pov:
I woke up to my door being opened with a small light escaping through. Russel stepped in crossing his arms.
"Go away I tired." I mumbled trying to use my half awake brain to form a sentence.

"I see sleeping next to murdocs room didn't do you any favours?" He sat on my bed beside me. I covered myself with a blanket and hid.
"Cmon up now,doll!" He shook me gently.
"Piss off," I groaned still hiding in my blankets.

I felt a hand reach under me as I lost grip of my warm fluffy blankets. I opened my eyes and saw Russel holding me in his arms.
"I'm awake!" I stretched struggling to get out of Russ' grip. He gently laughed and placed me down on the floor.

He shot me one last smile as he walked out my door closing it gently. I shoved my f/c fluffy slippers on and headed downstairs. Passing murdocs room,I stood there for a moment.I was trying to listen if the woman from last night was still there. Sounded like she was gone,then the door handle turned.

"Fuck" I mumbled skipping along the corridor.
"Oh hey,love." Murdoc shouted out me walking beside me.
"How'd you sleep," he smirked knowing fully well I couldn't go to sleep until like one in the morning,was this some game to him?? I grumbled in response and sped up walking into the kitchen.

Russel had plated out some French toast with fresh berries which were coated in golden syrup. I ran up and hugged him from behind,squishing him.
"Thank you!" I jumped. He gently stroked my hair and mumbled something that sounded like,
'no problem'

I grabbed my French toast and sat down at the table.
"Oh you really don't need to eat at the table,doll!" Russel gasped shaking his hands out in defence.
"I know,but I want to!" I smiled back as he sat opposite me on the table.

"So,tell me more about yourself!" I warmly said cutting up the toast with cutlery.
"Hmm,I'm 30,I was born in brooklyn,I'm 5'9,I love cooking,I've got a girlfriend and I do the drums in gorillaz!" He listed out occasionally popping a berry into his mouth.

"Now what about you?" He held his face and smiled.
"I'm 26,I work at an office,I have a boyfriend called Sam." Then it hit me Sam he must be worried sick! My eyes widened at the thought of him waiting at my door for me and me never arriving. He probably thinks I'm dead!

"You ok,doll?" He asked rubbing my hand gently.
"My boyfriend. I don't have my phone I think murdoc took it!" I felt my anxiety fill up. He's probably told my whole family,god they might've even called the police! Russel reached in his pocket and got his phone.

"Call him." His tone was a lot more assertive as he handed me his phone. I placed the digits into his phone (which I had memorised) and pressed 'call'
(Brring Brring)

(Brring Brring)
I quickly put him on speaker so I could hear him clearer.
"Who's dis?" His voice,how I missed it. It was a sort of low grumble which still somehow sounded relaxing and soothing in a way.
"It's me y/n!" I gasped in excitement.
I waited for a response as I heard him inhale sharply

"WHAT THE FUCK YOU WHORE?! ABANDONING EVERYONE?? WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?" I had completely forgot,his tempter.My palms were drenched in sweat as I took in deep breaths and Russel took the phone.

"That's no way to speak to her!" Russ' calm yet assertive voice was one of which could get a whole room of idiotic chaos-inducing children to listen.
"WHO ARE YOU?? IS SHE CHEATING ON ME?? THE FUCKING SLUT!" Sam screamed down the mic. I held my ears in fear as Russel chewed a berry silently and closed his eyes for a few seconds. He quickly passed me some earplugs he carried around (probably so he didn't hear murdoc at night) and rubbed my hand soothingly.

I closed my eyes as the muffled screaming filled the room. My breathing sped up and my chest began to close up on me. My eyes became heavy and my leg shook uncontrollably under the table fuck fuck I can't breathe I thought to myself gasping for air.

Russel jumped up realising what was happening as I collapsed onto the floor.

I awoke to the panic muffled shouting of Russel who looked like he was,screaming at Murdoc? I held my head in pain and sat up.
"Holy shit. Y/n are you ok?!" Russel gasped rushing up to me. Stu was in the corner of the room with a hand over his mouth and hugging a crying noodle.

Murdoc was avoiding looking at me as he stood there with his arms crossed.
"I uh, think so?" I couldn't think straight everything was spinning and my head was throbbing. Russel sat beside me and hugged me as I wiped away his salty tears.

"Shit. What if Sam finds m-"
"He won't." Murdoc interrupted. Russel sighed and let go of the hug.
"And if he does," he began "I'll fucking murder him." He whispered.

Russel got up as noodle sprinted up to me.
"I thought you were disappeared forever!!" She sobbed,struggling to find the right words. I stood up and hugged her,stroking her short black hair.
"I'm going,don't wanna be a part of all this sappy shit." Murdoc growled walking off.

"Aye,lemme tell yew someting," stu chucked.
"Abou' faur minu'es ago 'e was freakin ou' over you! first 'ime i've seen 'im so wawried." Russel gave him a bit of an 'are you sure' look as Stuart laughed.
"I mean, apar' from when russ shou's a' 'im of course." I breathily laughed and gave stu a hug.

I felt him tense up and him awkwardly put his arms around my waist.
"Alright" I said pulling away "I'm going to go lie down for a bit and maybe read." They all nodded in reply as I wondered down the hall into my room.

"Hey,love." Murdoc shouted inhaling the smoke from his weed before puffing out smoke rings by forming an 'O' shape with his mouth.
"Can I bum one?" I asked standing beside him.

"Sure love." He took one last puff before handing me the cigarette.
"Lemme show you something," I asked puffing out the smoke. He nodded gently as smiled.

I took a large drag of the weed and slowly exhaled while inhaling it through my nose. He smiled slightly impressed and nodded.
"Good way to get high," he smirked
"That's why I do it," I winked back handing him back the weed.

"Come on let's go into my room,love." He said holding my arm. I shut the door behind me as I entered and sighed at the horrible mess which engulfed the room.

It reeked of weed and candles which surprisingly wasn't as bad of a smell as it sounded and I sat on his bed beside him. I sat there dangling my legs for a minute while he had one leg up on his bed beside me
"So,what's it like being in a band?" I asked breaking the awkward silence. He chucked under his breath and took a large drag of his weed and sighed.

"That's all you can think of?" He shook his head jokingly "fine, I guess though.It'd be better if I wasn't the only one coming up with our only good songs." I nudged his arm with my elbow.
"Don't give yourself that much credit,I'm sure your not the only one working on songs."

I noticed his eyes had gone a bit red,he was definitely high as fuck.
"Maybe,but it bloody seems like I am sometimes!" I shook my head at him and laughed.
"Oh yeah did you know you can get high of sharpies?" When I finished my sentence I saw murdocs face light up.

"No,we are not getting high of sharpies!" I gently smacked his head as he rolled his eyes.
"Your boring." I snatched his weed off him and smirked while inhaling it.

"OI!" He gasped trying to reach it off me.
"That's what you get for calling me boring!" I chucked holding it far out of his reach. He stood up as I shuffled further onto his bed so he couldn't reach it. Murdoc pounced onto me determined to get his fag back. I was laughing so hard my sides were hurting so it was only when he got the weed out of my hands I realised he had me pinned down onto the bed.

Murdoc Pov:
I was high as fuck so it was only when I snatched my weed back I fully realised I had her arms pinned to my bed as I was on top of her,our faces centimetres apart. She didn't squirm or shout at me she just stayed there waiting for me to get off her.
Here's the weird thing though

I didn't want to.

(A/n:
WHY DID I LOVE WRITING THIS CHAPTERRJRIDDJODIDNXKZ. Sorry for not posting I've been struggling with mental health but you knowww <3
Thank you all for supporting me!)