Avatrice one shots

Ava's letter

At the end of S2 ava starts writing a letter to bea and this is what I think(hope) she would've written if she ever got the chance to finish it :) it kinda doesn't make sense but lets pretend she sent the letter from the arc
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Dear Beatrice,

I love you, I love everything about you and I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I didn't tell you sooner, I'm sorry that I never did what you told me to do, I'm sorry that I left you, but I will come back. I will make history and be a badass just to prove Mary wrong.

I'm sorry for the pain. That pain you felt when you let me go. I know how much it hurt cause I felt it too. That pain is the reason I know I can't live without you.

I would've never defeated Adriel without you. And I have to admit Michael was wrong, blowing him up up didn't do any good, it only got me away from you and I swear that if I had known from the start that the tarasks were the only way to kill that asshole, I would've done it on the spot and none of it would've happened.

I know what you're thinking, if I was telling you this right now you would tell me it's not my fault and I did did nothing wrong but I'll never know. Maybe it wasn't my fault, maybe it was all part of"god's plan".

But if it wasn't, if I was the one your heart, I will never forgive myself for it because you are the love of my life and I don't know if I'm yours but I want you to know that you are mine and nothing will ever change that. Wherever I am I will always love you.

Your warrior nun,
Ava.

PS: Camilla was wrong, I am yours and I will last 😜.