Switching Sides

Confessions and Bus Ride

As I woke up I looked at Kacchan and I was using him as a body pillow

(Like this but they are older)

I tried getting up but Kacchan pulled me back down.
"Kacchan we need to get ready for the training camp."
"Ugh Deku go back to sleep it's like 4:00 in the morning."
"But we have to get re-"
Deku was talking to much so I kissed him to shut him up.
"Kacchan that- you know what fine." I was laying down again and asked Kacchan if I could play games on his phone and he said no and that I needed the sleep.

30 minutes later
Kacchan was asleep again so I got ready. I took a shower got dressed and re-dyed my hair. I went down to the living area and I checked the time it was now 4:56 AM.
"I have enough time for a walk."
"Without me?" I flinched when I heard someone talk. I turned around and it was Kacchan.
"Sorry Kacchan I didn't hear you."
"Why are you up so early you need as much sleep as you can get Deku."
"Yeah yeah, you walking with me or not?"
"Fine only because I dont want you to get lost because you are the worlds biggest dumbass."
"Whatever let's go."
We left UA and was walking around the city and it was quiet.
"Do you think a quirk cancel thing will work?"
"I dont know but they probably have one for people like you."
"Maybe."
We were sitting on the roof and I was leaning on Kacchans shoulder. "Kacchan?"
"Yeah Deku?"
"I love you. I really love you I would rather die then loose you."
"I love you too Deku. You really do make me happy and I'm thankful for you."
"So does this mean we are dating?"
"Do you want to?"
"Yeah with every bit of my heart."
"Then I guess we are dating." 
"Kacchan we should probably start walking back since its almost 7:00."
As we started walking back Kacchan asked if we could just teleport.
"I guess. Let's teleport to the classroom." Once we were in class. I saw some people stare at us.

"Woah dude! Is that your quirk?"

"Um n-no it's just p-part of it."

I stared at bakubros friend. He had black fluffy hair with blue eyes.

(That's Dekus disguise)

"PLEASE TELL ME HOW YOU BECAME BAKUGOS FRIEND!"

Due to the unfamiliar people and the loud voice I flinched.

"Um we have j-just been friends s-since we were 2."

"Alright class take your seats."

I was glad Eraser started class, he saved me from so many questions about to be asked.

"Everybody grab your luggage and get on the bus."

As we got on the bus me and Kacchan went to the very back and sat in the same seat.

"Alright by the time we get to the place to stop it will be around 5:00 in the afternoon tomorrow."

(Please go with it)

I looked at Kacchan and he didn't look to happy.
"Kacchan you look so stupid."

"THE HELL DID YOU JUST SAY!?"

"Bakugo please dont yell on the bus."

"Whatever."

Time passed and it was now 4:00 in the morning and Kacchan along as everyone else was asleep.

"Damn it's kinda boring."

"Problem child why are you still awake?"

"I could be asking you the same thing but I told you I cant fall alseep easily. Most of the times I do sleep I have nightmares so I choose not to."

"No, you cant do that if you have a nightmare just tell me or Bakugo."

"Fine I'll try."
As I was laying on Kacchan and he had his head on the window

No matter how hard I tried I couldn't fall asleep. The voices kept talking to me.

do it.
Do it.
DO it.
DO It.
DO IT.
DO IT!
DO IT!
DO IT!
DO IT!

In the end I gave up and went to the bathroom with my razor.
Once I was in the bathroom I pulled up my sleeves and started to cut with each cut going deeper than the last. I dont know how long I was in there but when i looked down at my arms i had around 40-50 cuts on each arm. I put on bandages and cleaned my mess.
I finally got tired and went to sleep.

I woke up and saw Deku going to sleep. His sleeve was pulled up just a little and I could see blood and bandages. However sleepy I was then I was fully awake now.

"Deku wake up!" I whisper yelled. Luckily there was no one in the seats infront of us for 6 rows.

I was pulled from my sleep and I looked at Kacchan and he looked worried.

"Kacchan whats wrong?"

"Deku I think I should be asking you that."

There was silence for a moment

"Why. Why did you do it Deku?"

When Kacchan asked me why I cut I lost it.

"I-i dont know Kacchan i-im sorry!"

Deku started to cry and it broke me.

"Oh Deku, you should have told me. I know I cant change what you think but I can try to help."

As Kacchan was talking I just cried harder. I had to be as silent as possible so I had my hand over my mouth and was in the seat on my knees. I put my head on Kacchans chest and he was hugging me.

"I-im sorry K-Kacchan I just c-couldn't help it!"

"It's okay but tell me from now on. Please"

I just nodded my head.

"Let's re-wrap them okay."

I nodded my head and followed Kacchan to the bathroom.

"Can you try to estimate how many on each arm so I can figure out how much bandage you need."

I started to tear up again but held back.

"40 to 50"
I saw Kacchans eyes go wide.
"Okay let me see."

As I got the bandages out and took off his bloody ones there was fear, worry, and sadness in my eyes.

"Kacchan dont look so sad it's not that bad."

I looked at Deku confused and a little mad.

"Deku if you hadn't put bandages on you would probably have died from blood loss."

"But I didn't Kacchan so I'm fine."

I ignored what Deku said and started to put clean bandages on.

"There you're done."

After Kacchan said I was done I looked at him and I could tell he was mad.

"Kacchan please dont be upset. Look I'm sorry and I won't do it again okay?"

"Deku I'm not mad at you. I'm mad that I couldn't tell you were upset."

I got up and hugged Kacchan. "Let's go back to sleep okay."