THE FORBIDDEN LOVE

Chapter 15- is Charles ok?

We arrive at the hospital. I am in panic. Liam is with me. Supporting me. LIke he supported me three years ago, when I was the victim or patient. I was a victim of a hate crime. But now it is not about me. We did not get to see Charles because he is so hurt they had to rush him to surgery. I see that maman is a little bit flabbergasted to see me at the hospital, but honestly who cares? I don't because my big brother is hurt. They all were there for me when I got hurt when I was 16. There was no question. The whole fucking grid came, and they postponed the fucking Formula 1, 2, 3 and 4 season.

We wait on any updates. This surgery takes AGES. Is this how my mother and brothers felt when me and Si were on the table? One hour has gone by and not a single world. No one has gone inside, no one has come out. This is nerve wrecking. Like forget Formula 1 or karting. This is what gives the adrenalin kick. The not knowing.

We are on hour five. I have not tried to talk to anyone in my family except Si of course. Si sends me looks. Looks that say, when our brother is out of surgery, then you have to talk to maman. Or I will not speak to her, but I will try. I want to hear what she thinks, and well I already know what she thinks, but I want to hear her say what she thinks. I know maman will not hear me out, but like I have to try. She can't be mad at me forever. And maybe I can bring Liam with me too, so she can see that Liam is a nice boy. Even if he drives for Red Bull and their team in Formula 3.

And I will. I promise myself that, but Charles has to be okay first. Hour 24 and the doc comes to our room, and tells us that Charles had massive injuries but he will recover. I am relieved that he is okay and will get back on track, I just don't want to talk to maman because of obvious reasons, but you know if I don't try I don't think I will ever be able to speak to her again.