THE FORBIDDEN LOVE

Chapter 16- Trying to having a conversation with maman

I look at Liam. He looks at me. "You ready?" "Sei pronto?" "no ma credo di doverlo fare comunque" "no but I believe I have to do it anyway."

I walk up to maman, look her straight in the eye and say " tu ed io, dobbiamo parlare, ora" "you and me, we have to talk, now" I see that maman is surprised. We haven't talked for six weeks, and now I have the courage. I see maman is surprised, and that she struggles to find her words. I just realized that I was in Italian mode, and that maman do not speak Italian despised all her sons having ties to Ferrari, who is Italian. I try again, this time in french "toi et moi, nous devons parler, maintenant." Maman looks at me, stands up with no words at all and walks away.

I follow, and now I am pissed. "MAMAN! WHY DO YOU NOT WANT TO TALK TO ME? WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS?" We reach the parking lot, and I spot maman's red Ferrari. I try one more time, thinking the lady has become deaf these past six weeks, and I also do it in the mother tongue I know she knows, because she was the one birthing me, "MAMAN ! POURQUOI NE VOULEZ-VOUS PAS ME PARLER ? QU'AI-JE FAIT POUR MÉRITER CELA?" "Maman! Why do you not want to talk to me? What have I done to deserve this? She does not answer me, she just begins to walk faster and go into her car. She then starts the car and drives away.

I stand there in disbelief. Am I that bad? Am I so fucked up she cant talk to me or look at me? I feel tears coming down my face. I fall down on my knees. I feel defeated. As if it was not enough, the sky decided that it wanted to open up.  I hear a voice behind me. I turn around and look my siblings in their eyes and say "she hates me, she really does. I am going to move out of the flat we have here, and then I am going back to Australia. Back to what is safe. Back to what I know. I now have tried to speak to her, and I believe we all saw how that went. Now I am going to see Charles, then I am going to check in on the hotel where Liam is staying." I don't tell them which hotel he lives in, and before I even need to say where he lives, he comes out of the hospital.

"I will now take her inside. You can all come, but I believe that Leah should get to go to see Charles alone and then we are out of here, because how your mother just treated your sister says it all". I am so happy that he says that and since none of my siblings says anything I just walk back into the hospital and go into Charles's room.

"Hi champ, how are you doing?" I say. "Everything hurts, but other than that I am fine. You look like you are wet, and have been crying, what is going on?" he says. "This day is not about me, but if you really would like to know I have now tried talking with maman, and she did not even try to listen and talk to me. I am traveling back to Australia tomorrow afternoon and before that I am moving out of the flat where maman and we are living. I hope you have a fast recovery, and that you are back on track before someone or anyone can say gingerbread house. We are also going to see if Red Bull offers Liam a contract for next season in Formula 1, so then you know that next season I may not support you the way I used to do" I say and leave the room. "Liam, let's go.

When we arrive at the flat, I pack up all my things, look behind, close the door and don't look back. The chapters where I hide are now over.