WORTH

Chapter 4

Chantal POV

"Come on Y/n, please eat"

I pleaded but she turned her head away and I sighed in frustration, I put the spoon down and put the bowl of porridge away

She was discharged a day ago and Y/n refused to eat or talk to me, I couldn't help bad to blame myself for everything that happened

I took the bowl once again and tried to feed her

"You need to eat so you can bring your strength back, can you do that baby?"

I asked smiling but she pushed me away and cried, the bowl broke and the bedsheets were a mess, it has porridge all over it

"I-I'm sorry, I won't do it again, I'm sorry"

She keeps apologizing and I pinched the bridge of my nose and I held her hand to make her stop scratching her shoulders

"Baby, it's fine... look I'm not mad-"

"GET AWAY FROM ME! I'm...disgusting"

I cried and she curled into a ball while she grips her hair, I cried along with her and tried to take her hands off her hair

"You're hurting yourself, that's enough Y/n"

I sobbed, she keeps kicking and pushing me but I only hugged her tight, she might harm herself again

"I'm sorry... forgive me, love"

I mumbled and I hugged her until she fell asleep

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It's been weeks and there's still no progress in getting better, I've had a caretaker since I couldn't leave my work alone so I had to go to the company

I was in the middle of a meeting when my phone rang making them turn their heads in my direction

"I apologize, I'll just take this"

I apologized and answered the call

"Hello-"

"Miss! It's your girlfriend, she locked herself in the bathroom!"

As soon as I heard what she said, I left the meeting room and drove as fast as I can to my house

When I got there I burst the door open and I was hearing shouting, I immediately run to the bathroom and saw the caretaker trying to destroy the door

"Y/N! OPEN THE DOOR!"

I shouted and kicked it hard

"Love- please open the door"

I cried and kicked the doorknob hard causing it to break and I froze on my spot when I saw her

She was in the bathtub, the water was red and she had slits on her wrist, I immediately grabbed the towel and wrapped it around her wrist to stop the bleeding

"No... NO!"

I cried and pulled her out of the bathtub, I tried to do CPR and to my surprise, there was still a faint pulse

"CALL THE AMBULANCE!"

I shouted and continued with the CPR

"Please please, fight back baby"

I cried and minutes later the ambulance arrived

"Save her please"

-

My girlfriend lost too much blood and even if we do something her body couldn't handle it.

It's all my fault...

"...Chantal?"

"I'm sorry, please don't leave me... I'll do anything so please-"

"You know I can't do that"

Tears streamed down my cheeks as I held her hand but she weakly yanked it away and gave me a weak smile

"Please"

I pleaded, but she only smiled at me and cupped my cheeks, she then kissed my forehead and I closed my eyes, I held her hand and feel her warm touch for the last time

"I'm sorry I wasn't enough"

She whispered weakly and her hand loosened on my cheeks and all I did was stared at her with tears streaming down my cheeks

"...I'm sorry, everything's my fault... please wake up"

I mumbled and kissed the back of her gently, I cried harder and knelt down

"If only I can turn back time... "