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my mom sucks

I'm being serious, I hate her, I'm a middle child and she literally treats me differently from my other siblings, she blames me for everything, makes me do everything, she's let my brother abuse me physically and she abuses me verbally and mentally, but here's something I really don't understand, I mean I don't understand anything else but this one really doesn't make sense.

I was down stairs making tea so I could quit cough to death, while I was doing it my mom was making jelly, we talked for a bit and then she said something about not understanding why I didn't like how weird the jelly looked and I joked about how you could get diabetes from it because I could see sugar crystals all in it, she yelled at me and I told her it was a fucking joke.

This is the part where it doesn't make sense, she'll yell at me over a joke about to much sugar in jelly but she laughs when my brother makes uncomfortable sex jokes and racist jokes, like what the fuck, favorite much? Who the fuck whines about a joke about to much sugar but then is completely ok with sexual and racist jokes that clearly make people uncomfortable. 👏make 👏 it 👏 make 👏 sense 👏

I don't understand why I'm always the bad guy in the family, my brother is probably gonna be a rapist and pedophile when he's older with how he acts and claims "their asking for it, if they wear something like that" hell my mom's boyfriend even agreed with him, like what the actual fuck, my brother sexualized a child before and thought it was ok. I wanna know why my mom is ok with her youngest son growing up to possibly be a rapist and pedophile, but isn't ok with her middle child being normal and trying to make a change in the world and just makes a joke about to much sugar once.

I just wanna be clear, I posted this out of pure confusion and rage because I needed to vent somewhere and I didn't have anywhere else to vent, I know this is stupid to vent about but I just needed it off my chest for once. So anyone who comments something offensive or tries to accuse me of something stupid, I will mute you from ever commenting or reading my stuff ever again.