Guilt.

Hell.

| AUTHOR NOTE ; IF ITS WRITTEN IN ITALICS ITS NICOLES THOUGHTS! |

8:00am.

Great, another day in this fucking hellhole they call school.

REWIND! 6:20am.

* BEEP. BEEP. BEEP. *

I turned over in my bed. I slammed my phone in hopes the beeping would stop. It didnt. Shocker. I got out of bed and turned off my phone. 6:23 AM. Ugh. Why does school have to start so early? Fuck my life. I walked over to my wardrobe, grabbing my abominable-looking uniform. The colours dont even match! A green and blue tie? A black blazer? God. I stared at my reflection in my mirror. My baggy graphic-tee bagged over my black shorts. My blue-black hair shining in the light as i stared at my figure. God, im so.. ugly.. 

Wheres my vape? I grabbed my vape from under my pillow and took a couple puffs before getting my uniform on. After i got dressed i brushed my teeth and went to go sit at my vanity. I turned on my mirror lights as my twin sister walked in. " Heyy! You doing okay? You haven't come down for cornflakes yet. " My sister, Lilith remarked.

" Oh uh, sorry, im not hungry and im in a rush. My alarm didnt go off until twenty-past. " I said.

" Oh! Mkay, i'll be in my room if you need me. " She said back, Lilith turned around and walked out of my room, gently closing my door behind her. 

I pulled out my skincare and then went on to try and attempt to get rid of my spots. Ugh, i look horrid. After i did my skincare i put on makeup, nothing extravagant just foundation, blush, mascara, eyeliner, contour and some highlighter. I pulled out the bottle of vodka i hide underneath my vanity, took a few swigs and then threw some chewing gum in my mouth.

I checked my phone, 7:02 AM, the vibrant screen read. Ugh. I need to get ready and pack my bag. I shoved some money and my elux in my bag before going downstairs and getting ready to leave.

" Morning. " I said to my father.

" Morning, Cole' " He said back, tipping his head at me. 

My mum was nowhere to be seen, probably high under a bridge somewhere. I hate that woman.

" Hey dad! " Lil' said as she strolled downstairs. 

" Morning, Lil' " My dad replied.

" You ready to go yet, Lilith? Remember i told you i wanted to go to the corner shop before we got on the bus. "

" Oh, Yes! Bye dad, love ya. "

" Have a good day, Ill see you two after school. See you my little dove and crow. " He said, chuckling.

He calls us 'Dove' and 'Crow' because we are polar opposites. I have black hair that i dyed blue, its more of a deep blue colour that shines properly in the light, I have hazel eyes which fade into green the the outer circle. Lilith was drop dead gorgeous compared to me though. How are we even twins again? She had bright blonde hair which curled up into little twirls. Her blue eyes could pierce a man, i swear. She had big boobs, a small waist. She was the definition of perfect.

We went to our corner shop where i bought a new vape and a pack of cigs. I know the counter guy, his mother used to babysit me and Lil. He serves me anything. 

7:20 am.

Me and Lilith got on the bus with our friends; Ryu and Kiko, the rest of our friend group was fancy and got driven to school. Lucky them. These school buses are manky and moldy. the condensation of the horrible British weather makes it hard to see out of the windows because they always fog in a morning. Ryuki (Ryu) and Kiko are similar to me and my sister. Although they are not twins they are siblings, Kiko is in year 10 and Ryu is in years nine. With us.

7:50 am.

Our bus arrived at school. I spent my morning talking to my friends and some other i knew from connections. The bell rang so we all said goodbye, Tracy and Kiko walked to the year 10 form block as Ryuki and i walked to class with Lilith and Katrina, they are in my form, I knew Kiko from Ryu and Tracy from Kiko. We are one big friend group, i swear we have the most fun times together. I stood outside of my form rooms door Y9/27 before the second bell rang letting us know we should be in class now. 

8:00am.

I entered and my eyes scan the room. Great, another day in this fucking hellhole they call school.