CHAPTER : 3 MY BEAUTIFULLY SHATTERED WORLD

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by parishi09

by parishi09

CHAPTER : 3 My Beautifully Shattered World.

"I was feeling suicidal. My head was spinning. It felt like i lost the most precious things around me." Words echoed in my ears. I opened my eyes slowly i was still lying on my bed. But the difference was that the darkness of midnight which was scarleted by the moonlight was now replaced by scorching heat of the harsh red sun. I woke up with my head throbbing and heart pounding. Breaths streching and soul screaming. I tried to erase the last night's nightmare. I didn't dreamt of anything. Nothing.

I got up and got ready with continuously repeating the same lines to myself," Dreams never take a trip on you and nightmares are far for a talk. You didn't dreamt of a girl entering a mirror Nyx. You didn't dream of yourself. It was an Illusion."

I slicked my hair in a messy bun with strands falling down the sides. And i didn't even applied lipbalm showing the greatest of my miserable state. I still laced my lips into a smile guided by my fingers into a V on my face looking straight into the mirror. I jog down the stairs. I didn't quite had to see my mom today. Maybe she didn't want to show me her face after all that i spew on her yesterday. I get it it's hard to face me. Dying with embarrassment. Well i am too though. I saw two peanut butter jelly sandwiches lying on the table alongside a glass of plain milk. I assumed that was for me. That was for me. I picked a sandwich half and munched a bite. I drank two big gulps of milk whilst picking up another slice of bread making my hands full of PBJ sandwiches. I tugged at my bag positioning it to my shoulder perfectly and i walked off to uni snacking.

Jack didn't came to drop me today either. I nearly called him 30 times and messaged atleast 45 texts but none was attended by him. Hopeless me had to book a cab. I reached uni hoping i would see him. But he left none of his traces there. I looked around peeking and panicking until my eyes set on a red hair girl. Stella ~ That was her. She was laughing and giggling with her friends. Her friends - Carra, Julie and Luna. The bully gang.

I walked up straight to them to say a hi. A hi to Stella. I smiled and waved my hand. While the three girls rolled the eyes. Stella was sweet enough to respond with a smile. And as soon as she raised her hand to say me a hi. I was alerted. Those small cute stars of yellow was drawn around her wrist. Whatt!!!!! She is THE STELLA. No ways. Amazing! I smiled and thought of reverbing back. I tried to rewind my footsteps. But i heard Stella saying" I didn't saw Jack today". "Maybe he is out hooting with the boys". Julie spoke with her question marked smile." But doesn't he tells you everything?" Stella nodded in a yes. " But it's not necessary for him to tell me everything when we are ......." Unfortunately she couldn't complete her statement.

A straight. Hard.Worst.Nosebleeding.Impactful. And surely bone cracking punch laded on her pretty.........ugly face.

She was bleeding red. Julie and her other two chicks yelled at me and tried to shove me across but before they could even touch me the dark black gaze of my eyes made them to step back. We created a big fuss rather i created a big fuss. Everyone gathered around us. People making judgements, pitying over Stella, pulling draggers on me while some of them defended me too.

"What the hell" Stella cried." What did i do to you? What's wrong? Is there a problem?" She asked helplessly as her friends with benefits came to console her poor soul. My eyes were burning red. Hands fisted with jaw clinched. Tears were about to pour but before that my blood started to boil. "Jack's gonna leave you". Carra said in a blunt tone.

" You bitch hanging out with my boyfriend. You freaking homewrecker asshole. Tryna swing with what's mine ........" I couldn't say any further when i heard his footsteps colliding with the wooden floor. Jack's here. I could sense from miles away. I turned around to see those blue eyes. Before i could take any move the next thing i saw was enough for me to go in a psychic state. Stella ran past me as fast as a flash of light. And hugged jack tight. Crying. Sobbing. Hiccupping. Mumbling. Denying. Jack calmed her down asked her to what has happened. And i had to jump.

I shouted as loud as for everyone present there to hear me," This bitch is trying to woo you. Just a shameful slu....". " SHUT UP. JUST STUP UP NYX" Jack roared. I flinched so hard I stepped back two. He came dead close to me and whispered breathlessly" How dare you. How dare you to touch her. She is just a FRIEND of mine. How could you. I thought i had my faith safe with you. But i was so hell wrong. You betrayed me instead by not trusting me enough. And now it's over. For real this time". I shaked my head in a big no. " No no Jack i trust you completely i just had my doubts. I am sorry i didn't mean to hurt you. You know you are the world to me. Plz. Just listen ........................ Nooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!! He walked off.

I collapsed. Tears couldn't flow. Heart stopped beating. Lungs couldn't fill in more air. I was in utter shock. My soul had a huge dent on it.
Stella came to me and said " He literally loved you. We were just friends. You guys were a magic together".

" Well deserved " Julie spat. Carra and Luna just laughed it off.

Everyone started to disperse slowly until i was the only one left. I got up slowly. Still in huge shock. I walked like a limbless man not knowing my own directions towards light. I was pushed back and back to the dark. I thought i was just living in dark till now. Without knowing i am that dark. And people are living in me. With me. And want to seek their own light. I am that darkness in their life blocking their happiness. I tried to be the best. I tried to bond. I thought i was precious. Valuable. Priceless. Which was all wrong. I was wrong. Rather i am Ugly. Bad omen. Unfortunate. Unloved. Orphan. Living body with a dead soul. Blinking eyes with no vision. Mouthing words with no smile. A strong heart with all being broken. I lost everything. I had only him. Him with whom I could share myself. I lost myself. I liked myself only with him. He made me fall in love with myself. I started to like me. He made me strong. And now all weak again. Hopeless torn piece of a skin. That's what I was now. Guilt ridden blood swimming hrough my veins. I blinked and water flowed down. I lost him forever. I want him back. I want myself back. I lost us. My world broke. My beautifully shattered world.

I don't even know when i reached home. And how did i rang the bell for mom to open. My eyes were just wide open till now. No signs of crying. Grief written all over the face. I could cry and smile only when i was with him. Around him.Without him i could do neither.

I walked upstairs without even letting my mom speak. I locked the door and i turned. My brain stopped. I drew a blank. Wtf. I was sitting on my bed. But i was standing on the door. What is this glitch. A glitch on earth. That's strange. I blinked my eyes so fast thinking it was just a daydream. Again. But than i heard a voice. All soft and clear.

"*Stop stressing you eyes. Your eyes are perfectly fine. Just a little bit swollen that's it. They are seeing the truth. I am the truth.*"

She spoke. Rather i spoke.

She was my doppelganger. My duplicate. My carbon copy. Just with some minute changes.

Breaking my trance she stated with a smirk "* I have an offer for you. A LIFE-CHANGING OFFER*".

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