Broken

Chapter 4: The Truth

*Harry*
When those words came out of her mouth, my heart nearly dropped. I never got the chance to propose to her because she left me before I could. I think I still have feelings for Emma but now she is with Finn. All I want is for the best for her but it is so hard when you know that you can make her ten times more happier than she already is. Her saying that is like opening a old wound that was hidden away for good but now it's open for the world to see.
"Harry say something?" She said turning towards me and crying a little.
"Yes, I was going to propose. I had the ring picked out and everything. I was going to propose on a beach at sunset after we had dinner together. It broke my heart when you told me that you wanted to breakup. I cried for almost 6 months day in and day out. The boys thought I wouldn't be able to do the tour. I can't believe I'm saying this but I still love you. I want you to be happy, even if that means being with someone else. It brings me joy to see you smile and laugh with your beautiful voice. But when I see you with another it tears me apart, makes me die a little inside. I'm crazy madly in love with you but the only problem is that I have no clue what you think about that. There are probably a million girls who would want to be with me but the only person I want to be with is you." I said not believing that I actually said what I was thinking and what was my heart was telling me.
Emma stood there speechless for a while not knowing what to say to that as I literally just confessed my love to her.
"I thought you had a girlfriend?" Emma said which I was surprised to hear her say that because I don't remember when I told her that.
"When did you find this out?" I asked her with a confused look on my face.
"You told me that night that you were drunk. You said that you had a girlfriend but you didn't care about her." She said not looking at me. I swear I need to get a grip on my secrets because I blame them all out when I'm drunk.
"She's not really my girlfriend if you know what I mean. I just don't know what to call her other than that. But we really don't connect as well as you and I do. I never really talk to her at all, it's pretty much just physical." I said stating that truth but I guess Em didn't like hearing that since she cringed her face.
"Still it doesn't make it okay." She said about to cry.
"Since when does it make it okay to hide your emotions for someone else away from a person you are seeing at the time? Isn't that why people break up is because they don't feel as though they are truly in love with that person?" I asked Em almost crying a bit at that thought.
"I know but I feel like everything is so complicated. You have a girlfriend and I have a boyfriend. I just don't know." Emma said crying now. I wiped away the tears that were falling down her face.
"Won't you just tell me how you feel?" I asked since she never said whether she liked me or not.
"I think I might lov....." Emma started but Louis screamed at the top of his lungs that the seven minutes were over.
We walked down stairs in silence. Emma never got to finish her sentence but she was about the say love but who did she love, was it me or was it Finn?
"So how was it?" Louis whispered into my ear.
"That is non of your business!" I whispered back to him, not wanting to tell him about our talk together.
"So you banged her?" Louis asked with an excited look on his face.
"Think what you want." I said in reply not wanting to say yes or no to that question.
The rest of the night wasn't dramatic after that. We played the spin the bottle truth or dare but nothing really intense happened.
Louis and Eleanor made out as it was what they normally do when they see each other and Niall had to do a split which Emma showed him how to, but of course he didn't go down all that much.
Everyone was about to leave as the hangout was ending.
I saw El and Louis leave along with Zayn and Perrie. Leaving Niall, Emma, and I.
"Hey Niall can I get a ride from you or sleep here for the night. I forgot that Finn drove me here and he left" Emma said as I overheard the conversation happening in the kitchen.
"I actually can't. Got a lot of work I have to get done and the guest room has boxes in it. I'm sorry. But hey maybe Harry can take you home?" Niall said as I walked in to the kitchen.
I made a signature smirk to Emma which meant that what was going to happen was going to make me happy.
"Niall can't I just sleep on the couch? Seriously I don't care where I sleep as long as I have a place to crash for the night!" Emma said not liking what Niall told her.
"Oh come on Em, I don't bite!" I said making a joke to mess with her.
"It's not like you guys hate each other or have a thing so nothing will happen." Niall said, oh how he is completely wrong about that.
"Fine but you will only drop me off!" Emma said demanding me while pointing her finger at me. I decide to be cheeky and lick her finger since it was pretty much in my face.
"Ew!! You are so fucking gross!" She said cringing her face and pulling her finger back.
"Come on little Miss. Prissy Pants. Let's get you home." I said wanting to mess around with her some more because she looks really cute when she gets annoyed at me.
She didn't say anything but I could tell that she was a little bit pissed off at me.
We got in the car in silence and drove like that for a bit. I couldn't take the silence anymore so instead of talking I just turned the radio on. The song playing was a Nicki Minaj song called Feeling myself with Beyoncé.
Emma started to immediately start to sing and rap to the song getting into the song. So I turned up the music for her and I started singing along. Emma started to laugh when I tried singing the high notes.
"Leave it to the pro!" Emma said to me which she was applying to her. I let her sing so she started rapping Nicki's part showing off that she was the pro.
"Why these bitches don't never be learnin'
You bitches will never get what I be earnin'
I'm still gettin' plaques, from my records that's urban
Ain't gotta rely on top 40
I am a rap legend, just go ask the kings of rap
Who is the queen and things of that
Nature, look at my finger, that is a glacier, hits like a lazer" Emma rapped Nicki's verse.
"You're so better at rapping than I will ever be" I said to her after she finished. This made her smile a little bit.
"Thanks, I actually learned it on the tour. Nicki was there so she taught me." Emma explained as the song ended.
The song ended as the next song started. The next song was a song I had never expected to hear ever again.

*Emma*
I was actually having fun for the first time in forever during the car ride home, feeling like myself.
The song that I was singing ended with me being out of breathe having just rapped and sing an entire song.
The next song was a song I would never expect to hear, it was the song that Harry wrote for me, saying that he loved me and really meant it. In that moment I knew that Harry was the one. Oh have times have changed since then.
"I can change the channel if it's uncomfortable for you?" Harry suggested as he knew this song was about me.
"No. I want to hear it." I said to him as it was Ed Sheeran singing the lyrics. During the song the car ride was silent. I really listened to the lyrics. I never knew that the lyrics were so meaningful.
We got to my house entrance where it was time to say goodbye but it was bittersweet as I was happy to be home but on the other hand a part of me didn't want to leave.
"Well I guess this is goodbye." Harry said to me with a nervous smile on his face.
"Never goodbye, remember that!" I said to him with a big smile making him cheer up.
I started to walk up to my front door and unlock my door when I heard a buzzing sound from my pocket. It was a text message from my phone.
More than anything remember you can ~Harry
I smile a bit more that night than I think I ever had since being with Harry.
No guy in the world had made me as happy as I was when I was with Harry. It was like he was the other half of me, he knew exactly what I was thinking and what I would say. Harry may have broken my heart a while ago but that doesn't mean he hasn't changed since then. Maybe we can try to be friends and see what happens from there. It would break my heart if I broke up with Finn and I wasn't 100% sure why.
I decided to text Harry back with a cute message.
Thanks for thinking I can. But the real question is what can I do? ~Em
It wasn't sure if Harry was taking about my career or if he was implying something about our relationship. I know he is very supportive of me in my career field as he was the one who convinced me to go on the tour with Beyoncé, having second thoughts on weather or not I should stay with him or go on tour. Half of the things I have experience through my career couldn't be possible without Harry pushing me to take the leap.
As I was getting ready for bed, my phone buzzed with a new text message banner showing on the lock screen.
That is up for you to decide. 😏 ~Harry
Oh how could I not have predict that Harry was going to reply back with a cheeky come back and a smirk emoji, he literally does that for ever thing.
I got to thinking that since Harry and I are friends again, maybe he could come watch me at my dance practice for Step Up, since Finn is busy tomorrow and can't make it. Its not like Harry hasn't seen me at dance practice before but this time I am choreographing along side a few other famous choreographers such as David Scott, Tricia Miranda, and other amazing choreographers, also I am going to be in the dance.
It was a dream of mine to do what I am doing and Harry knew that from the beginning, I kept telling him everything I wished to do with my career when we were together.
I guess I'll text him before I go to sleep asking if he'd like to come with me to my dance studio to come watch me.
Harry, Would you want to come see me wow you with my amazing skills tomorrow? Great meet me at 9 sharp at 16 Langley St., Londan ~Emma
Then after texting him, I shortly fell asleep felling so tired but so good which I haven't felt in a long time.

*Harry*
I came back to Niall's house after dropping off Em because I rather not drive back to my hotel where Nadine was. I was into her at the time when I book the room at the hotel but now that Em is back in my life, there's really no need to be with her. Niall also said it was fine if I crashed at his place for a while.
I was getting ready to go sleep in Niall's guest room when a buzzing sound came from my pocket. Em and I had been texting each other after I dropped her off at her place. I wasn't quite sure if she was flirting with me or if she was only being friendly. Either way I was enjoying Em finally being able to talk to me whether that be texting, calling, or face to face, it was the most amazing feeling to have.
Emma texted saying to meet me at a studio to watch her "amazing skills" at 9 sharp, for me that time is pretty early, I don't even get up at that time let alone go places that early unless it's very important to me. I guess Em is pretty important to me and I am intrigued by what her "amazing skills" might even be.
I sent her a quick text message before calling it a day.
I'll be there but you should know that I don't even wake up at that time so you may want to bring 2 coffees tomorrow. ~ Harry
I got into bed and as soon as I did my phone started to vibrate meaning another text from Em.
Great! Can't wait for you to be there! Goodnight Harry. ~ Emma
I decided to be cheeky and send a cute text message back to her.
Me either. Goodnight love! ❤️ ~Harry
I really hope she doesn't think that's too forward. I know she just wants to be friends but being more than friends is so much better.
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