the church virgin| l.mh x h.js

5

i cant handle change- roar

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"so," jisung started as he added cream onto the wounds on minho's bare stomach. they were sat in jisung's house.

minho was on the countertop in the bathroom and jisung was between his legs, patching his wounds.

"you said your dad has done this before? why?"

minho sighed, wincing as jisung pressed the rubbing alcohol onto his cuts. "um, when i was 14, my dad found out i had a boyfriend. he's not the most supportive of me."

he added a small chuckle and jisung's eyes softened. "i'm sorry that this happens, minho. it really shouldn't. have you ever told somebody?"

"you."

jisung put the cotton pads on the counter, seeing minho's shaking hands. his eyes teared up and jisung quickly wrapped his arms around minho's middle, pulling him into a hug.

"you poor thing. you need to tell people about this."

"who am i going to tell? my parents are pastors, ji! no one's going to believe me!"

jisung knew how difficult it was going to be for minho. even with only knowing each other for a week or two, he knew they had a deeper connection.

"minho, i'll help you, okay? whether it's staying with me for a bit, or me talking to someone for you."

jisung took out his phone, texting his mom. his smile widened. "you can stay with me for a bit, yeah?"

minho gulped, glancing around the bathroom. "are- are you sure? i can't just barge in like that, ji-"

"i'm insisting, minho. at least, if you stay, i know you're safe here."

the older nodded, hopping off the counter. "okay."

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the two laid in jisung's bed, the younger's hand rubbing up and down minho's side. minho shuddered, meeting jisung's gaze.

"ji.." minho softly whispered. the latter nodding slowly. "yeah, min?"

"i want to learn more."

jisung hummed, sitting up. "do you want to try something new?" minho joined him in sitting up and shrugged.

"honestly? i want you to finger me."

jisung covered his mouth as he laughed since they had to be quiet with his mom sleeping in her room downstairs.

"we have to keep quiet. specifically you."

minho huffed, tugging off his shorts and boxers. his confidence wore off as he saw jisung lubing his fingers.

"ji?" the latter glanced at him, seeing the fear in minho's eyes. "be gentle? please?"

jisung's eyes softened, nodding. "of course. you know i will be. just talk to me throughout, yeah?"
he poured some of the lube on the entrance and minho shifted.

"okay, ready?"

he waited until minho's agreement, before slowly pressing the tip of his pointer finger in. minho furrowed his eyebrows, and jisung pressed in a bit further.

he kept his eyes on minho at all times, making sure to notice even the slightest hint of him being uncomfortable.

minho nodded, reassuring that he was okay, gripping the pillow lightly when the entire finger slid in easily, knuckle now pressed against the entrance.

"doing okay? it's in."

minho blinked quickly, glancing down at jisung's hand, breath catching in his throat. jisung's eyes snapped open wide.

"what? are you okay?"

minho's lip wobbled and he nodded. "just- how am i supposed to have a fucking dick in there if i can't even have fingers?"

jisung sighed, slowly pulling out his finger, wiping it on his pants.

"minho, everybody's body reacts differently and takes different amounts of time to be ready. if you aren't ready, it's okay. we aren't rushing anything, you know that."

minho bit his trembling lip. "does- does it hurt?"
jisung pursed his lips before nodding. "depends on the amount of prep you get, but it is the first time that area of muscle will be stretched. so, yeah. it hurts a bit, but goes away with patience."

"i want to do it." minho nodded surely. "i want to, ji. i know you'll be the most gentle with me."

"min, i'm not taking your virginity."

minho's shoulders slumped. "why?" the younger sighed, shaking his head. "it's a big decision, minho. you have to do it with someone you really love, and trust."

"i trust and love you-"

"minho. i can't take that intimate moment from you."

minho slapped a hand over jisung's mouth. "ji. i'm asking you to. who else is going to be this patience with me? i know you have what we need. even tomorrow, i just want it to be you."

jisung slowly took away minho's hand and sighed. "i'll make you a deal." minho's eyes lit up and he nodded quickly.

"i'll do it. but, we fully take our time, you tell me every single time you feel a bit of pain. and it can be tomorrow. i have the perfect place."