If anyones reading this I'll update the murder story tmr.
i feel like shit.
i dont really know how to word how i feel. its stupid. i cant say how i feel. im stupid.
only two people know whats wrong.
i feel like nobody.. idk i guess likes me anymore
i feel like i let everyone down in some way.
i let myself down
nobody could actually like me, or hell, even love me
why would they? im useless. im horrible. i deserve what i feel.
recently everyones been acting like im amazing, and that im a good person.
im not.
im horrible.
im not a good person.
everyones lying to me. i know it.
they could never love me.
it hurts to move breathe and talk. everything hurts. it hurts to think. they all hate me.
im gonna lose them all one day. im gonna lose him. im gonna lose them all. because i mean. nobody ever stays. nobody does. hah.
everyone "loves" me
yeah right
why
why would anyone love
me?
i really dont want to be here anymore.
the one person that made life worth living, is slowly leaving
i have paranioa
BUT HEY
IM FINE
IM SO COOL
IM FUNNY, THEY ALL THINK IM FUNNY, IM FUNNY AND COOL AND NICE AND EVERYONE LOVES ME. IM SO COOL.
IM FINE.
IM PERFECT YKNOW.
I AM TOTALLY A-OKAY.
WHEN AM I NOT.
HAH.
IM FINE.
IM SO FUCKING COOL.
