loki imagine

cw!! blood, gender

AN: this story also dbbles i to my girst exploration into my nonbinary identity. So theres mentions of it from here out, but heads up i was wildly unfamiliar.

Anyhoo
Maybe read, maybe dont, im not the boss of you:)

*time skip bodloo*

Odin: go serve my filth, and never.
His hand gripped tightly around your neck
Odin: Never, disrespect me.
With that he gave you one last push into the freezing floor. You scrambled to your feet as fast you could but it wasn’t fast enough, your back was met with odin’s boot. You stumbled out the servants threshold of his chambers and made your way to loki’s room using the back ways and shadows.
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(late that night)
A soft knock at the door brought Loki out of slumber, he had drifted off, crying on the rug, because you left and he never got to say thank you.
You: Loki sir, may i enter?
Loki jumped up as you knocked on the door again. running to the door, as soon he opened it, seeing your small shaking figure,he threw his arms around you before a stifled yelp of pain and he let you go. Without a word He softly guided you into his room,closing the door behind him.
Loki: please, sit.
He asked, gesturing to the foot of his bed as he went to his closet grabbing clothes that he wore when he was younger and a thick blanket before setting them next to you
Loki: what is your name?
He asked as he came out of the bathroom carrying the box of medical supplies he saw you treat him with.
You: y/n, might I ask why sir?
Your body tensed, preparing to be reprimanded for asking questions.
Loki: well y/n, would you please show me what he did to you.
Loki said setting down the things he gathered. Still gathering various items from around his chamber.
You: sir there is no need for you to waste your time on me, I. if you wish I can go to my quarters and have one of the other servants help me.
Loki froze and you prepared for him to lash out squeezing your eyes shut as you heard his footsteps approach you. Instead, you felt a hand rest on your shoulder with a delicate touch
Loki: y/n, please open your eyes, please-just please look at me.
You open your eyes and looked up to Loki, there with an expression you have never seen him have. An expression like he cared He lays a cold hand to the side of your face. The unfamiliar sensation made you cringe away slightly, loki noticed and he withdrew it quickly.rubbing his thumb against his index and middle finger together in a small moment of thought. His features reset to their usual scowl.
Loki: there. now I can see how beautiful your eyes are, now please may I see what my- what he did to you?
You take off the shirt that used to
be a light cream, now it is almost completely a crimson purple,and pull up your trousers.you have deep gashes from your wrists to you shoulders, various  bruises begin to cover your entire body, and your whole back has been begun dotting with whip and burn marks, your legs look as though they had barbed wire wrapped around them .A soaked bandage around your chest lets a few drops of blood fall to the ground. Loki gazes at you
astonished that you are still conscious,let alone trying to work.
He knelt down as he gently held your arm at the elbow.
Loki: ...you're a girl?
You tear up as you nod slightly, knowing you could be punished by death because you hid who your identity.
You: Are you going to kill me because I don’t want to be?
You ask,holding back tears, Loki,still kneeling in front of you his grip tightening as he realizes how much he scares you, feeling like he truly is a monster.
Loki: Why would I kill a child who only wishes to know themself? now,
Loki got up and looked at your back. Clasping his hands together.
Loki: I wish I knew where to start so why don’t you tell me what i should do y/n?
You: sir this really isn’t necessary I-
Loki: y/n allow me to try and aid you like you have done for me all this time. Or at least a temporary aid till you can see someone more capable than i… so please tell me what to do.
You tell Loki what to do with all your visible wounds, you show him
how to wrap an arm and tell him how to clean your back so you can’t get an infection. He asks you to tell him about yourself.
I guess they are his wishes. That is my job after all… but.. the rules?
You: but sir-
Loki: y/n please call me Loki, I owe you that mu-
You: AHHHH
Loki: OH My I’m so sorry
Loki was kneeling on his cape and slipped, elbow hitting an untreated part of your back that was covered in cloth
you: ahh.I- I think you opened it more,
you said weakly through gritted teeth. More blood began to drip from the cloth. As Loki used a dagger to cut off his cape.
Loki: I am so sorry, just do the same thing on a larger scale, right y/n?
you: yes *yawn*do you mind if I just take a nap, rest my eyes for a bit?
Loki: no no no no no do not close your eyes. You’ve lost too much blood
You began to fall back, leaning into Loki, he cradles you as your eyes flutter closed.