5SOS Sickfics (Reimagined)

Poor Health and Self Destruction - Part 2

Luke's POV:

While I was outside I had gotten a text from an unknown number. I didn't know who it was, but all they sent was a video of my girlfriend making out with some other guy, telling me that it was from a party last night. As if my life didn't suck enough already. In all honesty, I couldn't have been surprised. It wasn't the first time that happened and it wouldn't be the last. While I waited for the call to come, I bummed a cigarette off of a man, puffing on it, desperate to calm my nerves.

I rushed back to the waiting room when I got the call to come in. When we were told what state Ashton was in, I completely broke. It was the icing on the fucking cake.

As I sat there with a comatose Ashton in his room that was so quiet you could hear a pin drop (minus the machines), I thought about how my life was going, how much I hated it. I wanted to make huge changes - scratch that; I needed to make major changes in my life. I had two choices in my mind. I stood from the chair, wiping my hands on my pants to rid them of the sweat. Calum and Matt watched me, and I got an evil eye from Micheal, but I ignored his glare. I staggered out of the room, and walked to a secluded space in the hospital, offices of some sort, pulling out my phone. I scrolled through the contacts until I found her name. I dialed it and waited for her to pick it up.
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Arzaylea answered, "Hey, babe. What's up?" She asked, ignorant to the fact that I knew what she did. I paced the hall.

"Arzaylea," I spoke softly. "Arzaylea, we need to break up," she stayed silent for a while. All I could hear were her breaths. After already being in a sour mood, I was growing impatient. "Hel-"

"Why?" Arzaylea asked, seemingly completely dumbfounded. I felt she knew the reasoning, however. It wasn't like she was totally oblivious.

"I'm tired, Arz. I'm tired of all the lies, all the deceit, the mistrust, the belittling, and the cheating most of all. I don't want to keep being the only one trying in this relationship," I explained nonetheless, once again earning yet another moment of silence.

"Well, you aren't perfect, you know! You've cheated on me too," I took a deep inhale. I felt deprived of precious oxygen. Of course she'd try to turn it on me and make it about herself. It was just like her.

"That was one time and I've tried making that up to you. I've given you all of me over the past year and pleaded for your forgiveness. All that and what do I get in return? You, sleeping around. It's fucking exhausting putting in all of this effort, only to be stabbed in the back every time I fuckin' leave," I was trying not to cry, but despite my efforts, I was choking up. "I'm dealing with so much. I cannot deal with our toxic relationship right now. I just can't handle it anymore,"

"I've put the effort in; you just refuse to see it. I won't let you break us up. We are good for each other and you know it, babe. I just won't accept that as an answer," I shook my head, sliding down the walnut wood wall. With her words came a strange sense of paralysis that took my breath away.

"You don't understand. It's not just you." I can't believe I am pouring my demons out to her. "I fucking- I have been starving and secluding myself from everyone. All the hate I get from you, the fans - I just can't anymore. I don't want to be-" she cut me off again right before I could tell her the thing that had been plaguing me for years. The very thing that I wanted most of all at that time. I felt like I needed to tell her, but she didn't even give me the light of day.

"Luke, just stop, okay? I'm not letting you end this and that's final. I'm going to hang up now. We will talk more later. Bye, Luke," unlike the usual, she was true to her word, she hung up.
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I felt like the world was coming crashing down on me. A fit of all consuming panic rushed over me causing me to cry nonstop for several minutes. Eventually, when all my tears were dry, I let out one last sob, staring at my phone, biting the inside of my cheek. Once I finally got a grip of myself, I stood back up, deciding that it was well time I headed back. We all only had so long to be with Ashton, after all.