Shattered

Shattered no more

*Erykah pov

My heart beated loudly as me, my mother, and the detective moved through the multiple hallways searching for patrick. The building was very dimmed and only little bit of light showed. The scent of must and smoke made a little nausea but i was more determined to find my little brother then worry about my own stomach.

Ten minutes passed and we couldn't find Patrick at all. I was getting tired of walking into dead ends and old rooms that were dusty and empty."Is the tracker still showing Eden is here?" i whispered. "Yeah, but lets go back outside and wait for the police to come down" my mom said sadly. We began to walk out of the building but the sound of a baby giggle stopped me.I paused to make sure im not tripping but i heard again. "wait!" i shouted. The detective and my mom quickly turned around. More laughter came from down the other side of the hallway we were walking away from. I slowly walked over towards it and came up to an open window. I looked outside and didnt see anything but when i looked up i saw a small human figure dangling from the roof. my heart dropped and i damn near almost lost my mind. i quickly ranned down the hall and headed up the stairs to the roof. "ERYKAH WHAT'S WRONG?!?!?" My mom asked. "Eden is on the roof, i think patrick is about kill him" i said in and out of breath as we continued climbing the stairs. We ended up merging into the policemen that were coming down. "Whats going on?" one of them asked. "my little brother is hanging from the roof, we have to hurry!" i said as i continued to run faster up the stairs. About time i reached the roof i was exhausted and felt the need to fall out

i slammed the door open to the outside and walked onto the roof of the building. There he was standing with a gun in his right hand and eden in other hand but had him dangling over the ledge. "MY BABY!!!" my mom yelled. "Sir were going to need you to hand us the child,drop the gun, and hand us the child" the police directed. Patrick smirked and his eyes instantly met mines. "I told you not to fucking say anything but your stubborn ass just don't listen" he said unaffected. The police loaded there gun and aimed it at Patrick. He chucklled lightly and shook his head. "Why...Why are you doing this to my family patrick?" my mom asked with tears falling down her face. "Eveny i love you but it's your daughter that has turned me to do all of this. You don't even have to be on her side. Remember you told me you never had any type of love like me? Well you can still have that if you just stop letting your daughter get in between us. We don't need her Eveny. I can make you more happier" he tried to convince her."Dont listen to him mom, remember he raped me! He lied to you and made you think he was the victim. Please mom if you didn't listen to me back then i pray to god you listen to me now" i told her. "There is no fucking doubt that i will ever believe antother word that comes out of your mouth. You fucked up my family long enough and i won't allow no more to happen Patrick. I thought that if i be with you i could finally fill in this empty void i had but with my two amazing kids i know theres no replacement when it comes to that" i spoke.

He smirked and shook his head. "If i cant have you no one can" he said as he slid eden arm a little down lower and aimed the gun at me. The police moved in a little closer. At this moment i knew what i had to do. This man has made me so dysfunctional and scarred me that i had forgotten my own self value. I walked up to him face to face. "Erykah get back!" my mom yelled. "I have been raped by you. You invaded me and took something of mine that i will never get back. You put me through many nightmares and sent me into spiraling dark path. There is so much Anger i have because of you. So much pain and suffering i have. You really think a bullet is going to out beat what you have did to me? See what you failed to realize is that i rather get shot...then to get mistreated and Shattered by a low life, self conscious, evil spirited, psycotic ass bastard. If you want to harm anyone, you should honestly harm yourself because your the one who needs to be dead. So go ahead and shoot me. It's not going to be worser then the amount of pain you put me and my mom through, but don't hurt my little brother. Not him" i said bodly. His eyes kept shooting back to me and my mom. Suddenly he picked up Eden and through him across the roof. "NO!!!!!!" i shouted out but 2 bullet wounds blew through my body. i hit the hard concrete and winced in pain as i saw blood comming out of my stomach. Last thing i could remember was my mom screaming and crying. After that, everything was a straight blurr

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I woke up to a beeping sound constantly ringing in my ear.I groaned as sharp pains ran through my stomach. "Erykah?" i could here my mom voice but it sounde so distant and so far away. "Erykah honey its me, your mom" she said. i blinked a few times to clear up my vision. "Wha...what happened?" i asked. My throat was very dry so it was hard for me to actually talk loudly."Patrick shot you in the appendix twice, the bullets inflamed it and they had to remove it and the bullets immediately" she answered. "Where...Where is Eden?" i asked. Her face went into immediate sadness. tears fell out of her eyes and she took a deep breath. "He..Killed him" she said. my heart raced with shock. "he...he killed him?" i asked making sure i heard her right. "look baby you just woke up i don't want to put you in any trauma" she said rubbing my curly hair. "What happened to him mama?" i asked again. she sighed. "Patrick through eden across the roof before he shot you. When you hit the ground Eden was already on the ground...dead" she cried. i shook my head no because i knew this had to be a dream. "Please mama, please tell me im still dreaming...and this is all fake and my baby brother is still alive" i said. "i wish i could Erykah" as she spoke those words i begin to cry my heart heart out. "it's going to be okay baby, he...he's in a better place honey" she said hugging me. i could tell she was crying too. "what about you being pregnant ?" i asked her. "abortion" she shook her head. If i would of just spoke up when it first happened, none of this would of happened. Everything is my fault. Gregory death, My little brother's death and now my mom is back to being miserable.Now it seems like i was better off being constantly raped....

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"So that's why your so scared to open up ? because of what happened to you three years ago Erykah. I know Your mom boyfriend did one of the most unbearable things to you i mean it's one of the most hardest things to accept as a woman but you cannot let this control your life, especially the people you meet because all thats going to do is limit you from meeting someone special. I know its hard sweetie but you must learn from it not run from it." my therapist spoke.

"i took away innocent lives because i didn't tell anyone when it first happened. I just feel like Everyday i wake up and feel nothing but regret. I know its been 3 years and he is locked up but i still can feel him in waching me when i sleep and when i take a shower and-"

"He isn't there Erykah. He's only in your memory sweetheart. One day your going to meet someone who will make you forget all about that Erykah. help you get off that dark road you running away from and shine you into light. You just got to finally accept it and let them" she said. The time beeped and my therapy session was up. "Thank you dr.Jenkings, ill see you on thursday" i said as i grabbed my purse and begin to walk out. "No problem dear, you be safe" she before i walked out of the room. i reached in my purse and searched for my car keys and ended up walking right into someone as i headed out the front door. "Im so sorry" i said looking up at a tal light brown handsome guy.

"Don't be im not use to bumping into gorgeous girls" he flirted. i blushed and continued walking towards my car. i then stopped and turned around to see he was walking away. "hey!" i shouted. He paused and turned around. "Aren't you going to ask me my name and number or something?" i asked curiously. "well i don't want to bother you any longer cause by the looks of it your in a hurry but...if you want to i will" he started to walk back. i couldn't help but to laugh. "one day your going to meet someone who will make you forget all about that Erykah" My therapist words spoke in my head. "im Erykah..." i said shyly. "Justin" he smiled back showing white pearly teeth. If i wanted to let what happened to me go i have to accept it. "do you wanna walk and go have a coffee or something?" he asked. "yeah...i would love that" i said. From this moment on i have to at least try to push myself out of the deep thoughts of patrick. Here is my new start.

"Love yourself enough to know that fear can only control you if you allow it."

THE END

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