Hike

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Description- You have been suffering with depression and body dysphoria for many weeks and you can't get yourself out of it. The Staffy is Sebby. (GirlxTransguy)

(Your POV)

Its 1:30pm in the afternoon and you're yet to get out of bed and do something productive today which is nothing new to you. 

You've been suffering heavy with depression and body dysphoria for weeks on end and you weren't getting any enjoyment out of life right now. 

You're barely eating, hardly any sleep and your mind is constantly circulating around your body especially your chest since you haven't received top surgery yet. 

You were nestled within the duvet cover with Barry and your beautiful 4 year old white Staffy Sebastian or Sebby that you nicknamed him. 

Barry and Sebby get along perfectly which is what you and Rhea were sceptical about when you met 3 years ago but your baby boys get along so well and they are your safe space. 

You suddenly heard the front door open and close which caused your baby boys to start barking and run out of the room to see who it is but you already knew who it was, it was your beautiful girl Rhea. 

"Hello babies" you heard Rhea before you saw her emerging from downstairs "hi Daddy" Rhea smiled as she sat upon the bed next to you and cuddled you tight within her arms "hi Rhea" you sighed a little as you rested your head upon her chest.

"You're home early baby" you questioned "everything was pissing me off and I couldn't work out properly so I just decided to end today and come home" Rhea smiled softly at you "are you ok baby" Rhea asked as she knew depression once again had sunk in since you hadn't got out of bed yet.

"I feel like shit Mami and I'm exhausted" you sighed "its ok Daddy; I'll make you feel better" she smiled as she kissed your head gently.

When it comes to sex; you and Rhea are both dominating in the bedroom but Rhea referring to you as Daddy makes you feel good about yourself. 

"You need some fresh air baby; how about we go on a hike with the baby boys" Rhea suggested as she got up from the bed "I'm not sure; I don't think I have the strength to get up" you sighed and buried your face within the duvet.

"Come on baby; I know you're exhausted but some fresh air will do you good plus the dogs need a walk too" Rhea pointed out which gave you the tiniest bit of motivation "ok Mami but can I wear my binder" you asked turning your gaze up to her "of course you can baby but wear your less restricting one baby" Rhea smiled before she kissed you softly upon your lips.

"Come on baby boys; walk time" Rhea called the dogs as she started to get changed out of her gym gear.

You have no idea where Rhea gets her energy from but what she does know is most of the time, you feed off that energy and are able to tunnel yourself out of the deep hole you settle yourself in.

You sighed sadly but managed to fight yourself and get up to get changed for your walk; you haven't been outside in days and Rhea has been responsible for making sure the dogs get the exercise they require. 

You quickly got dressed into your walking gear which consisted of hiking boots; t-shirt and jumper with black shorts and started walking downstairs. 

"Here baby I made you a packed lunch for the car" Rhea smiled walking up to you with the Tupperware in her hand "I know you haven't eaten yet so you're gonna need some energy before you collapse" Rhea smiled before she kissed you softly. 

You've always loved the way Rhea takes care of you; she knows when you need to eat, when you need to sleep and definitely when you need some fresh air; she knows you better than yourself. 

You grabbed the packed lunch from her which consisted of a sandwich, a yoghurt, some grapes and a packet of crisps and you proceeded to grab Sebby and Barry's harnesses whilst Rhea grabbed a few bottles of water. 

You got both of your dogs in the car and you waited for Rhea to lock up the house. 

You still felt depressed and being out in the sun wasn't helping you but you knew Rhea wouldn't allow you to back out now but you always knew it was important to get some fresh air and take Sebby on his daily walk to give him exercise and keep him sane. 

Rhea soon came outside and she got in the car and started driving to one of your many hiking trails. 

Whilst she was driving; you started to eat the packed lunch she made as she rested her right hand upon your thigh which made you feel so safe. 

You finally arrived at your hiking trail and started to instantly regret Rhea convincing you to come outside. 

You both grabbed your dog's leads and you both started walking up the hill hand in hand as you started to feel a bit better being out in the world. 

Another reason why you hate being outside is because you get misgendered a bit too often and it definitely hurts even more now since you're on hormones. 

Once you reached a safe enough area where you were both alone; you released your baby boys from their leads and they both soon ran off; being lunatics and causing mayhem. 

"Do you feel any better baby" Rhea asked as she wrapped an arm around you "a little bit...I'm sorry I've been feeling so shit lately" you admitted before Rhea suddenly stopped you within your tracks.

"Baby what you're going through is fucking shit and I know you desperately need your surgery but we are going to get through this because I love you" Rhea smiled and pulled you close to her chest and she wrapped her arms tightly around you.

The feeling of being wrapped within Rhea's arms has always made you feel so safe and makes you feel so calm; Rhea never wants any harm to come to you. 

"You can keep apologising to me for feeling like shit but I'm still going to be by your side and annoying the fuck out of you" you felt Rhea laugh which caused a small smile to appear upon your face.

"You know I will try my best to make you feel better and I'm only suggest this but maybe some medication temporally can help you" Rhea pulled away to look at you; the thought of medication made you feel anxious since you despise taking any sort of medication to help with your mental health.

"I don't know baby; you know I hate medication" you sighed "its only a suggestion baby, I will never force you" Rhea cupped your face within the palms of her hands "my other suggestion is you come train with me at the gym 3 times a week and you take the dogs out with me everyday" Rhea smiled before kissing you gently.

"You know that's not a bad suggestion; I'll do it Mami" you smiled at Rhea before embracing her within a hug "I love you Mami" you smiled into the nape of her neck "I love you too Daddy" Rhea tightened her grip upon you.

"Come on; we didn't come out in the sun to just stand around" Rhea reminded you as she grabbed your hand and you both started walking up the steep hill soon finding your lunatic dogs running around like morons. 

Mami truly always makes you feel better and you're happy she convinced you to come outside and get some exercise.   

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