Couldn't get there

Chapter 5: it can't be

Darkness, 

darkness,

darkness,

and then light, so much it was blinding, so utterly blinding, i for one have no idea how long it's  been, or what happened, all i remember, was him, Tyler, him, and then the bag, then i was unconscious, this is all i remember. but all i can think is that I must have been imagining him, cause why on earth would he be kidnaping me ,  I mean he was the one who broke up with me...

*flashback*                                                                                                                                                                                   sitting on a couch has never been so uncomfortable, i sat down after he said we needed to talk, we sat opposite from each other. I thought its was awwkwarddd af, so I thought why not try asking him why he's here "so... why are you here? if you know not for the usual?" from the grin he gave me, he understood exactly what I was talking about. " listen..." he started " i-i-i I think your a great person, and I think one day, one day you'll make someone very, very happy. but the person isn't me. I love you and I probably always will, but we can't be together anymore, it just isn't meant to be." he's found someone else, I should've known, he was spending so much more time away from me then usual. " who is she?" i hear myself ask. "what?" he asks clearly confused, " well, your leaving me because your with you want to be with someone else, right?" I can almost feel the tears, coming down, slowly. no, I wont cry, not here, not in front of him. " No, no I am not leaving you for someone else, its just I need some time to myself. I cant be with someone else right now. but I am so sorry". 

*end of flash back*

That was the same day, they attacked. Never, never will I love someone again. 

And yet, after all of this, here he is standing in front of me , with a blinding light behind him, looking like an angel. I miss him, so very much. But i won't let it show, i wont let him see me weak. 

"ah, so your finally awake" he say, looking like he hadn't expected me to be. "yes" I say, try to not make my voice shake, it comes out even, or well as even as possible. " do you want some water or food?" he asks, I don't understand why he's trying to make small talk, he kidnaped me, what does he want me to say, yes i want food, cause I haven't eaten properly for 6 months. " Tyler, what am I doing here-" i say sounding exasperated "-why the hell did you kidnaped me, after breaking up with me, what did you want? to hurt me more. Is that what this is, I don't know anything useful"

"Really Kathy, no. but I wasn't the one who kidnaped you, it was just apart of my mission." he says, taking a deep breath, " I guess I owe you an explanation huh?" I nod my head, not trusting myself to speak, not when he's this close to me.

"where do I start, the reason I broke up with you, was because to join the destruentes, you cant have any other relation outside. I want you to know that no matter what,"

he looks as if he's in pain, but he continues " I will always love you"