Tiny Step's (MDLG Story.) Slow Updates.

Chapter FORTY-SEVEN.

[FORTY-SEVEN ]

(Long Ass Chapter.)

(Time Skip Saturday Morning.)

Esme Knight's (POV)

Waking up to sun shining threw our bedroom window I yawn stretching feeling myself in my big head space since yesterday. Looking over at Elena I smile an snuggle more into her feeling her cuddle me closer, I sigh and blush filling my wet diaper. Looking up at Elena I just memorize every inch of her face in awe of how I got so lucky to finally be with this goddess of a woman I had, had a crush on for the longest time. Yesterday after our talk I finally told my mind to shut up its thoughts of her ever leaving me, the nightmares have been so bad not only because of these particular thoughts but also because of my past and all that I cannot and probably never will forget. When we both fell asleep with the much needed rest we needed I ended up waking up before my love and just doing what I am now. taking in every beautiful thing of the woman I love, who is my momma.

I know these last few emotional talks we have will just be the first of many but each time I fall more and more in love with her. it's like the warm feeling just flows over my body and mind and I know I can keep fighting even more than before to stay alive and be me. I know that if I never met Elena my life would be worse now or over now and that thought now alone makes my heart clench as if I am having a panic or heart attack. Yet feeling Elena stirring awake and rubbing my back I relax back into her knowing I am safe. Stretching I nuzzle my face into her boobs and hear and feel her laugh lightly making me smile and kiss her chest. This makes her shiver and I feel her goose bumps as she kisses my head humming. These moments are the best, the ones that just show small jesters of love and care. Peeking out and up I see her looking down at me with that love she has for me and I blush causing her to giggle and pat my bottom which cause another round of blushing.

She chuckles pecking my nose saying, "Why is my love blushing so much this morning hmm baby bean?..." giggling I shake my head and lean up kissing her, she kisses me back making us both breathless before leaning back saying, "How about we get you in a fresh diaper and we go have breakfast hrmm, we both a have a fun day planned you get to go to your play date with the twins today!" at this I smile nodding and she chuckles asking, "Do I have a quiet love and baby this morning?..." smiling I shrug and she just smiles getting us up, I don't know why I don't feel like talking yet, it could because my mind is overflowing with so much or it just could be because I'm not ready yet. Sometimes I don't speak in the morning and Elena is always ok with it she can read my mind as it is you know. That still freaks me out, but I also love it so much because not all of my spaces can express themselves that well. Same for my big self now, sometimes I just need to keep quiet. It is also part of the trauma as well from before I was homeless, I haven't fully told all to Elena but I know she can tell when something is wrong and will always know how to help. She gets us moving to my nursery so she can change me before we finish both our routines for the morning. We always start with her changing me into a fresh diaper and what we have dubbed my breakfast onesies because as she always reminds me I am a messy baby in any head space. As usual I just smile or giggle at it as I relax into her hands rubbing lotion over my body than powder.

Sometimes our routines don't go so smoothly because if I am not in my big head space there is always fun and chaos. This particular thought makes me giggle to myself and Elena just kisses my tummy shaking her head as she finishes diapering me saying, "Such a full mind this morning huh baby bean." I I just wiggle as she starts putting one of my onesies on me before she picks me up onto her hip patting my bottom asking, "Are you excited to see the Hanson's and the twins today sweetheart?, Prue told me yesterday on the phone at dinner that Alley and Ashton are excited to play with you again." smiling up at her I just nod and lay my head on her shoulder as we get into our bathroom, she kisses my head asking, "What does my quiet love want for breakfast this morning hrmm?, let's see I am craving a bacon omelet and hash browns"