Broken beyond repair? (Larry Stylinson)

Chapter 6

Chapter 6 (Harry's POV)

Song: Breathe me by Sia

"Be my friend, hold me, wrap me up"

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It was 2:30 am when I woke up. I didn't sleep that much lately and you couldn't really blame me, right? I reached in my pocket and grabbed the sheet with the lyrics from the other day on it. I was so hurt by what Louis had told me... Was that really what he thought? I read through the lyrics. Nah, they were shit they were too obvious.

I wanted someone, a friend to hold me when I was feeling down. And I wanted someone to blame for my fucked life. But truth was there was no one to blame but myself. Suddenly some words came into my mind and I wrote them down:

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy 
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am no where to be found
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy 
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy 
Warm me up
And breathe me

(A/N: This song is from Sia and is called Breathe me, but pretend it's from Harry :))

"Harry? You awake?" Zayn suddenly asked from outside the room. How long had I've been writing? Wow, it was almost 6...

"Uhm, yeah. Come in." I said after hiding the lyric sheet. The door opened and revealed a tired looking Zayn.

"Look, I'm sorry, but we have to go to rehearsals... Simon wants to discuss the new tour..."

I groaned. Rehearsals meant seeing Louis. "Yeah, I'll get ready." I sighted.

Zayn smiled a sad smile and left. Soon I was ready and went downstairs to meet Zayn at the car. The drive was really quite. When we arrived Lou's car was already there. I decided I would simply ignore him. Not acknowledge him at all. We went in and were greeted by Simon and the boys. I looked everywhere but Louis. 

"So", Simon said "Since Louis can't sing because of his throat everyone of you will just cover a song. Zayn begins."

"Uhm ok... I'm going to sing... You found me, by The Fray"

He went in the studio and started to sing, he really had an amazing voice. I felt Lou's eyes on me, but I didn't turn around. When Zayn came out, Liam went next with Viva la vida by Coldplay, and then Niall with As long as you love me by Justin Bieber. Soon it was my turn, but I didn't have a clue what to sing... until my fingers reached into my pocket and I picked out the lyric sheet. Why not?

"Harry? You're turn." Niall said. I looked up and went to the piano. The others gave me odd looks, because 1. they never heard me play, and 2. they went into the studio... Well Hell...

I started to play and soon I was completely unaware of my surroundings. After a short intro I started to sing with all my emotions filling my voice.

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy 
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am no where to be found
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy 
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy 
Warm me up
And breathe me

I finished with the last accord and looked up. Simon looked at me with awe and a bit of worry. The other boys were just staring. They were shocked.

"H-Harry, that was bloody amazing!!!" Niall said with an open mouth.

"Totally agreeing here" Liam said.

"I never heard you play... That was grate." Zayn said. Then I finally looked at Louis. He was staring at me. I saw in his eyes that he was sorry, but it would take more than a look. 

"Well, I never heard that. Who wrote that?" Liam asked. They looked at me questioningly. Should I tell them? I really needed some fresh air. 

"I wrote it last night." I whispered and stood up. I heard 5 gasps of shock and went outside. I hid in a corner and lit a cigarette. It calmed me down immediately.

"Harry. Can I speak to you?" Simon asked from behind me. I sighted and turned around. I saw his eyes widened at the cigarette in my hand. 

"You wanted to speak?" I asked

"Since when do you smoke?"

"Since the X Factor." he gasped.

"Why? Was it my fault? Did I put under too much pressure?" wow, he really cared.

"No"

"Than explain to me. Harry you're all like sons to me. I care about you."

"I can't uncle Si. It's complicated..."

"It's Louis isn't it?" Why did everyone figure this out before me?!

I sighted in defeat "Yes."

He smiled sadly. "And, in you song... The first verse you sang?"

I knew it was too obvious. "Look, Si. I really don't want to talk about this, ok? Please?"

"OK, but one day you'll tell me, deal?"

"Deal." I smiled a little smile. He started to walk away, but suddenly turned around.

"Oh, and Harry?"

"Hmm?"

"If Larry Stylinson was real, I would totally approve." he smirked and walked away.

God, that bastard. Suddenly I felt a hand om my shoulder. I shrieked but relaxed immediately when I looked into a pair of sad blue eyes.

"Haz... I'm so sorry. I never meant to say that. I swear I didn't mean anything of what I said. And I promise I'll be there for you more often and I really care abut you and..."

I stopped him hugging him tight. "Lou, you're rambling." I said and he sighted in relief. 

"God, I'm so sorry..." I smiled at him. Suddenly we were both leaning in, and I felt his breath on my lips. We both closed out eyes and leaned further in...

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Hehe... Cliffhangaaaaaaa!!!!!!! Sorry :) hehe.... :P