Song: Lonely - Palaye Royale
She's the support her family needs
A person who is a reader
Reading the stories of characters.
They feel prisoners to the pages they stick on.
Feelings are mutual, my friend.
A reader who finds friends in fiction.
The reader turned writer.
Still a backbone to her family.
She creates her friends and writes for hours.
Creating her dream moments in fiction.
She sacrificed time.
Time for exploring the world,
Making stupid and irrational decisions,
Causing chaos with the non-existent group of friends.
She made them eventually.
She hid from the world.
Had open ears for anything.
Closed them with the sound of rhythmic music,
While yells were creeping through walls.
She regrets most things in her life.
She also appreciates them.
They created her.
A person who values time.
A person too nice for their own good.
Lack of human interaction didn't build core abilities.
She has no confidence to start a conversation with a stranger,
Let alone a classmate she has been with for a semester.
She has no ability to fight her own battles.
Hell,
She fights everyone else's.
She has no way of asking for help.
She tries now.
She has no idea how to do things for herself,
No clue on what she's doing in the first place.
She's really trying.
She built so many memories with her little sister.
So many.
She was afraid of the memories,
They matured her.
Responsibility at its finest.
Caring for a ten-month old,
She's twelve,
Almost thirteen,
Papers scattered around,
All missing from a teacher's gradebook.
A parent at work.
A parent who said will be home in an hour.
Four
Hours
Later.
It's three in the morning.
"She's" turning to "I's"
I am a human.
I am an introvert.
I am a sister.
I am the backbone of my family
I am a person who hides her true feelings
A smile hides the battles that are ongoing
Or the ones that have been lost.
So few have won.
I can say that I didn't fail.
I tried.
I really did.
I sacrificed time.
Time I got back.
No,
Time I took back
Time to explore the world I live in
Made stupid and irrational decisions,
Caused chaos with the best group of friends I have made.
I did it all.
I support my family like a backbone
While I struggle to support myself.
That's who I am.
I'm a backbone that puts their all for others
But collapses when I put a little pressure for myself.
YOU ARE READING
Poetry Of The Rushing Mind: Eighteen
PoesiaI love poetry. My life up until eighteen has been a rollercoaster. I have grown to love writing and am slowly finding myself along the way. This is all of my work that I either submitted for class, or I was stuck in my head and had to release my tho...
