Second

02

Nabi’s POV

“Are you ready, Nabi?”
tanong ko sa sarili ko bago ibagsak ulit sa higaan ang katawan at sumimangot

I am still not ready to meet them, I feel uneasy right now especially since I am so bothered with some things.

Another thing, wala akong kilala sa school namin, especially sa classroom so it will be challenging for me—maliban kay Nazer, wala na.

Kumilos na ako agad, sinigurado ko na maayos na ang lahat ng aking gagamitin at dadalhin. Nagsuot ako ng white long sleeves, black skirt, and black boots. I still don’t have a uniform since I‘m a transferee. 

I tied my pretty long hair on the side to make something style on it. Then I decided to go to the school

While walking in the hallway, towards my room, I can hear a noise coming from the classrooms.

Hindi na bago sa akin ang bagay na iyon, because, in the first place, it's natural

but sometimes it’s not normal.

Pumasok ako sa room ng section namin, I saw them looking at me, and they were greeting me like we knew each other. Naupo ako sa bakanteng upuan na katabi ng babae na maikli ang buhok na may bangs

'Dora style'

“uy hi, andyan na pala si Nabi”

“hi Nabi”

bati ng ilan na nakakakita sa akin. Dahil sa hiya ay tumatango na lang ako at ngumingiti

The ambiance inside the room wasn’t nice for me. It feels like I want to vanish

I kept looking around, familiarizing the area. Then I saw Nazer sitting at the back, busy chitchatting with...I think his friend?

Nagpakawala na lang ako ng malakas na buntong hininga. Then I heard someone calling me

“Hey Nabi, congrats sayo” bati ng kaklase kong...artista. Yeah, he’s good-looking and nice. his name was Jared. He smiled at me and I just nodded and made an eye smile.

Then suddenly, a gay comes to me “Hala bakla, ang ganda ng pilikmata mo, ang haba!” papuri niya sa eyelashes ko, I felt nice about it, I just thanked him after that and I looked down.

I still feel something unusual inside the classroom. But I managed to focus on the discussion when we started.

“It’s your turn, Nabi.” my adviser told me. We’re having an activity. It’s about our experiences in life that we regretted

I stood up and nervously walked in front of them. I sighed heavily before speaking.

“Before I start, I want to introduce myself in front of you. Hi, I am Nabi Costa, a transferee.” pakilala ko sa sarili ko

“This school was my first and last dreamed academy...as of now. Simula bata pa ako, nangarap na akong mag-aral sa school na ito because I know that it has a high-quality education. But they didn’t let me since galing pa ako sa malayo and that time, masyado pa akong bata. Not until I entered the stage na kung saan natututo na ako para sa sarili ko.” panimula ko. I can feel my legs trembling out of nervousness.

“pero hindi ibig sabihin na nagdalaga na ako o natututo na ako kahit papaano eh nakukuha ko na ang gusto ko.”

“My relatives, particularly my mommy’s mother doesn’t want me to study here in this school. She always says that I can’t, I‘m not that smart to study here—in short, she’s downgrading me and my other relatives supporting her.”

“since I was a kid, I never felt that my whole family was perfect because of the relatives I have.” Sabi ko at nadinig ko silang nag react

“but with God’s help, I still managed to study here. I decided for myself and my parents, and siblings supported me which is a good thing that’s why I am here.”

“And I wish, the pain and the resentment feeling inside me will disappear,” I said before I crumpled the paper on my hand and put it inside the trash bag. I heard them clap and I sit on my chair, feeling relieved.

Agad naman na tinapos ang buong klase at nagpauwi na. When I was walking to find the Finance office, I saw Nazer. Lumapit ako sa kanya para sana magpasama kung nasaan ang Finance office

“pwede mo ba akong samahan sa finance office? I need to fix something” pakiusap ko. Napatingin siya sa akin pero agad na napatingin sa kasama niyang babae na hinahatak siya sa kamay. It’s Dezirell. One of my classmates.

“Sorry I can’t join you, nagpapasama sa akin itong si Dez eh” pagtanggi niya. Nakaramdam ako ng bahagyang inis pero hinayaan ko na lang at agad na tumalikod sa kanila at naglakad palayo. I decided not to go to the office at umuwi na lang.

After a long and tiring day, umuwi na ako sa dorm. Humiga na ako bago pa magIihis. Then i heard my phone rang

It’s Nazer.

“Hmm. I didn’t like the way you acted earlier.” bungad niya. Agad na umangat ang kaliwa kong kilay

“what about it?” tanong ko

“the way you acted in front of me noong hindi kita nasamahan and the way you acted in class.” he answered straightly.

Napatikhim ako bago pumikit nang mariin at sumagot. “sorry, i‘m just pressured and bothered.” sabi ko

“Sa gano’ng paraan ka ba dapat makisama sa mga nakakasama mo? naging mataray ka kanina, hindi mo pansin? para kang wala sa sarili. napapansin ka rin ng iba---”

“so?” tanong ko

“so, what?” tanong niya pabalik

“fine, sorry.” mahinang sagot ko.

I know na kapag hindi ako nagpakumbaba, mapapagalitan ako nito. At hindi nga ako nagkakamali.

“Did you get it, Nabi?” he asked. i nodded na para bang makikita niya

tinapos na namin ang usapan at nagpahinga. I feel like i want to cry.

I didn’t expect that it will be worst. Worst first day of school.
Hope it will be nice next time...