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y/n has always been the the shining light of hollywood. her parents, jack and roselyn y/l/n are famous actors who fell in love on set. they always talk about how it was love at first sight but she never really believed them. while she...
So... that happened. I'm really starting to regret letting her back into my life, but it's the consequences of my own actions.
"who's Lydia?" Jenna asked; I was half stunned but not surprised. Instead, I wanted to come at this from a different angle so it didn't turn into a big deal. I took a look at Billie, who side-eyed me right back with a guilty look on her face. She handed me a bowl, to which I wiped my face with and finally answered.
"if you would let me explain, this will not turn into something bigger than it needs to be-"
"Please do explain," Jenna replied coldly. Ouch. Suddenly Billie butted into the conversation before both of us could say anything.
"Okay, look. Please don't get mad at her, Jenna. It was practically my idea for what happened, and she was too drunk to do anything about it. Better yet, I was the one who texted her!" Billie yelled. Well, better yet, she raised her voice. I nodded in agreeance, but she didn't look too convinced.
"Who the hell is she anyways?" she asked, and Billie opened her mouth to answer for me, but I stopped her.
"she's an old friend, a really old friend," I answered; Jenna crossed her arms in reply.
"she didn't seem like a friend the way she was talking to you last night and right now through messages."
"Okay, maybe more than an old friend, but let me and Billie explain, okay? let's go to the couch or somewhere." I said, Billie, nodding in agreement. Jenna stared a me for a long time, probably in severe thought and anger, which wasn't far from the truth. She was perhaps angry I kept this from her for so long, let alone not even telling her what was going on or who she was.
"fine," she said after what felt like hours, but in reality, it was only a couple of seconds. We headed out to the kitchen that I promised myself I would clean after this whole argument was over. Finally, we sat down on the couch, awkward silence in the air as I shifted uncomfortably.
"she was my ex. Well, my first girlfriend. Things didn't end well for us, and I broke up with her; it was only last week that we started talking again, which I originally did not want to, but she kept begging, and it felt almost suffocating." that was a poor fucking excuse.
"so you decided to befriend your ex again because she was begging?" Jenna asked, Billie, waving her hands in the air,
"that's not exactly what she meant-"
"that's exactly what she meant. what happened between the two of you anyways?" Jenna asked, which made me freeze up slightly and look at Billie. She knew exactly what happened between the two of us, and she also knew I never wanted to talk about it. Same with Ryan.
"um-" I started, and Billie cut me off again.
"That's a touchy subject..." Billie said, and I shook my head,
"Billie."
"What?"
"Can you leave for a second?" billies eyes widened for a second before she nodded her head.
"ill be right outside the front door if you need me. Call me when you're done," she replied, getting up from the couch and going to the front door before opening it and stepping out. Once the door clicked shut, Jenna looked over at me, her eyes holding something I couldn't read before she sat down next to me, looking up at me while I practically wanted to sulk and disappear into the couch, never to be found again.
"what happened between the two of you?"
"a lot of fucked up shit," I replied,
"Like what?"
"I don't think I'm ready to talk about it," I said, which made her stand up from the couch. I kept my head down, afraid to look her in the eye. Maybe it would make her madder; perhaps I'm just not confident enough to face the past.
"you're going to go behind your girlfriend's back with your ex and not tell me what's wrong and why this is happening??"
"that's not-" I started but quickly cut off as I raised my head, finally looking at her.
"That's not what? Not what you meant? Not what you meant to invoke? I'm your girlfriend, for fucks sake, y/n. Don't you think I should have a little light on this situation??" she said; I nodded and stood up in front of her; this time, she looked up at me instead of the other way.
"of course, that's not what I meant! I'm just saying that if you give me a little time, I will tell you!"
"you want some time, y/n? Don't worry, ill give you time. All the time in the world!" she started, packing up her things and walking to the door.
"wait, Jenna." I reached for her hand, but she snatched it back to her side.
"No. Do you want some time? Go ahead and talk to me when you're finally ready to tell your girlfriend what's up with you." was all she said. She didn't let me say anything more, opening the door and looking t the right where Billie probably was and slamming the door. I stared at the door for a second in astonishment. Did I really just fuck this up? Yeah, I did. (author: you did LMFAO). My fingers twitched slightly before I grabbed a remote and threw it on the floor as hard as I could, it didn't break, but it wasn't in good condition either.
It was a clear sign of the anger issues I still had as a child, something I couldn't stop even after all the patience I had developed in my life. With the idea, the press, the paparazzi. None of them could make me angry, but this did. I sat down on the couch, my hand making my way to my face as I sighed deeply, trying to stop the tears that were in my eyes from coming out. I didn't hear, but Billie had made her way back in and sat beside me. She was Patiently watching me before I finally looked up at her.
"Didn't go too well, did it?" she asked, a frown on her face as she wrapped her arm around my shoulder, and pulled me into a hug I didn't know I needed. No tears fell; I wouldn't allow myself to cry, not again. Even if my emotions pulled ad pulled, I wouldn't. Maybe it was selfish, perhaps a really fucking bad coping mechanism, bottling up feelings I shouldn't.
"no, it didn't."
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(did i do that? kinda🧌 did i slay about it? not sure yet. welp, happy tuesday mfs. i kinda want to make this segment just me ranting about dumb stuff so, yes. i promised yall a chapter tuesday and I DELIVERED! bless the lord. i finished finals about a week ago and oml, it's so stressful and for what? anyways i felt angsty (if that's even a word) and put it in writing because i want y/n to suffer moreeee. also working on my manuscript and poc as the lead??? YES. we don't see enough of that when reading honestly and if we do they are poorly written which i find kinda sad. FINALLY, who's in the wrong? jenna or y/n?)
