Maybe I can (A list of poems)

Self harm

TRIGGER. WARNING. DER. not my best work I'll admit, but I made it in like 10 minutes when I was bored and it was okay. It's more of a rap type style... Hey maybe I'll record me rapping it someday. Eh. Either way here.

I started self harm at the age of 13
Even though I had all A's
I sat in school saying what does this mean?
And I was completely advanced
For only one reason,
Because my worth was my AP class.

I couldn't tell you shit.
And no,
As I child I was not hit.
But the kids I met
With their words
Put me in a fret.

So I drew with silver
And it came out red.
And I'll continue this shit
Until I am dead.

The deeper and deeper
The scars I will keep.
Until I sit in my room
A complete messed up heap.

But I won't cry out.
I won't break.
I'll look my my moms pout.
And look how she begins to shake.

But I'll just stand there.
And won't feel bad for her.
Because it's all my own.
My condolences I condone.

But I refuse to lose.
My counselor doesn't haven't a clue
What's in my mind
And so they act all kind.
But I know it's fake.
Attempt to fix my mistake.

But no, it won't work.
And they'll put me on pills.
And label me with,
A mental disorder that kills.

Depression, anxiety.
Oh won't some one just help me.
Borderline, bipolar.
Someone should've told her.

That I will sit in a coffin
That I will take my death in.
After consuming a toxin
And my life, that is fin.