The Boy Next Door (Harry Styles)

Chapter Three

A/n to those 5 people who read this. It sucks doesn't it ? ._.

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--Harry's Pov--

* Flash back *

" Come on Harry! It'll be fun. " Katie says as she grabs my hand, she wanted to go to a party. I wanted to stay and watch movies.  

" I just don't want to go. Why do you want to go so badly anyways? "  

"Because all we do is watch movies. Lets do something fun for once!" She pleaded. And I caved in.

Literally five seconds after we got there I wanted to leave. Everyone was drunk, or high. Katie never liked these things, there must be someone here.

Sure enough there was someone. And I could tell Katie liked him. Later, I caught them kissing. Nice. This is why I don't like coming to places. Anger started to take over. My fists clenched up. They stopped kissing. I hit the dude. I didn't even know who he was. Katie was yelling at me, I didn't care though. Not right then I didn't.

* End Of Flash Back *

Katie and I, we've had so many problems in the last year. Things that we beyond repair. I was hoping everything would change now. That word, hoping. It seemed to let me down a lot. When I used to hope Katie liked me, I hoped we wouldn't go to that party, hoped things would happen between us. I got let down a lot. Which caused my anger. From the attitudes, to the yelling. Everything was bunched up inside me and it only took something little to light the flame. A lot of people were scared of me. I couldn't blame them though, I was scared of my self. I never knew what I would do when I got mad. Everything just would go black, I wouldn't remember a thing if it got bad. My mom barely talked to me anymore. She was still loving and caring like always but, she was scared she would set me off. Even though I would never touch her and she does know that, but no ones so sure when I get how I do. Gemma, my sister, she moved out a while ago. When she got into uni, she comes by every once in a while. We used to be so close. That's until I started getting older, and pushed everyone away expect for Katie.

Katie had helped me in ways I can't explain. She's been there when no one else was. She knows how to calm me down, I think she can sense when I'm angry and about to blow. So, she calms me down. She tends to always know what I'm feeling, I guess I'm very open with my feelings? That's what Gemma used to say. She said to always stay that way. It just stuck I guess.

Katie wasn't my only bestfriend when I was younger there was Liam, Louis, Niall, and Zayn. Liam moved, so did Louis. Niall he lived in Ireland so I barely saw him now. And Zayn he barely talked to anyone, he was into different things then me and different people. I faded away from them. Not wanting to keep contact. They didn't seem to call. I mean Niall did and sometimes Louis. Liam not so much, but it didn't bother me one bit I had what I needed all along. Well, who I needed.

What time is it even? I'm so caught up in my thoughts.

It's 2:38 am. I was not going to be able to go back to sleep. Katie was in my arms, I hadn't even noticed.

I wasn't going to mess up this time, at least I hope I won't. I've messed up a lot with Katie and everyone else I was close to. I pushed away everyone when ever I got into my mood. It ended a lot of things for me and complicated things. But I can't change the past. It's what made me how I am today. And that's how I like it.