Lowkey, Darling | Jenlisa

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- Lisa's POV -

I took another shot. Placing my glass down. "Well?" I looked to my side at Kaia. "I can't. I need more." I said, watching her pour me another glass.

I downed it immediately, on the urge of coughing from the burns but holding it back.

"Alcohol isn't the best way to cope either." She said, pouring the glass full again. "At least in the moment it does work." I took it back, swallowing my fifth.

"Or not." I tried to bare with the mental and physical pain. "Lisa, you have to admit it to yourself that you still want her. You're making it worse by denying it." Kaia explained.

"I swear to god, the only feeling i never want to see or stumble upon is loving someone so much even though they don't love you back." I looked at her with a saddened expression.

"And i assume that you being here in the USA was the plan to distance yourself?" She asked. "Well, yes but no." I replied. "I had assignments here. Collaboration stuff but i swear to god, all i want is to run away and forget about Jennie."

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I got off my plane. Following the staff and the bodyguards through the airport. I was so tired. Absolutely drained out from my mind and no sleep but i covered myself much for the media to not see it.

We got to the car and i got in, the driver taking me back to the apartment here in Korea.

I had noticed Rosé and Jisoo active on social media but Jennie was quiet. Almost too quiet to be like her but i opened the door and got to the kitchen.

Grabbing a few bites to eat, i could tell the apartment was empty, no sign of anyone here even though i told Jisoo and Rosè i landed safely.

I got in my bedroom, stripping out of the clothes and dropping in my bed, falling asleep immediately after.

- Jennie's POV -

I picked up my phone, immediately getting Jisoo's number up and calling her even though it was coming close to midnight now.

"Did you know?" I immediately asked as she picked up. "That Lisa is back here?" I added in. "Yeah. Rosé and i know." I heard her say. "Why didn't you tell me?!"

"Because you're too busy with your boyfriend." She replied but with a chuckle through the call.

"Jisoo, you can't say that. That's not a argument." I gave a chuckle back. "Oh right, yeah. But you don't spare any time to sleep back at our apartments anymore." She confessed. "But that doesn't give an excuse about not notify me about Lisa."

"Jennie, she truly is your first love, huh?" Jisoo asked, making my lips form a smile. "Don't say that. If V hears this-"

"Then let him hear it." She spoke back. "Jisoo, stop. I'm gonna hang up before you say anything else." I chuckled to myself. "Sure, alright. But have a goodnight. Talk to you tomorrow."

- Lisa's POV -

I closed my eyes for a second whilst sitting on the couch. Trying to take in breaths to gain more energy for the performance. Even though i slept, i was exhausted, constantly waking up in the middle of the night from stress.

"Lisa! Come on!" The door had swung open, Rosé cheering for me to come. I stood up and walked out the room, all of us getting on the pad and being raised up on stage.

Like always, everything went on. Song after song flying by as fans are in excitement. I got closer to the edge and asked the bodyguard to hand me one of the small papers that i saw a fan holding.

I immediately took it in hand while still crouching. My eyes scanned across the small lettering but long text. Reading every word out in my mind.

My heart shattered into pieces from the words written. Everything was perfect in such a sweet and positive way about motivation and happiness.

My eyes teared up as i tilted my head further down, trying to hide my face away. I immediately tried to wipe the excess tears away, standing up and walking further away from the crowd.

I joined the members in line as Rosé sang her last lyrics, people cheering up as the last song came to an end.

Thankfully after a minute or so, we said our goodbyes and went backstage. I was rushing to the dressing room to get my stuff and leave to the car.

I was all over the place. My emotions were flying around and all i wanted was to cry it all out.