Lowkey, Darling | Jenlisa

12 - Shattered

-- Two Weeks Later --
- Lisa's POV -

I put my attention to the door as i heard the it open, seeing Jennie walk in and gently place her bag down, taking the coat off.

"Hey." I faintly said out, burying my eyes back on the phone. "Lisa." I heard her walk over and sit beside me on the couch. "We need to talk."

I looked back at her, seeing the extreme stress and redish eyes from crying. "What's wrong?" I put the phone aside and positioned myself her way.

"I've been quiet and distant lately." She started after taking a breath. "I was really lost and unsure of what to do. I still am but i definitely have decided to start doing things to make a difference."

"Jen, why-" I was going to speak but she stopped me. "Please. Don't. I need to explain and say everything i can." Her voice hitched.

"I know i have been wasting time the past weeks. I have been all over the place and completely apparting in the relationship." It was obvious by now that this conversation is going to be serious.

"Jennie, i never feel like i'm wasting time with you. We can sit in silence for minutes or hours and i'll still feel so full to have you around. I'm thankful for you." I expressed but i couldn't bring up a smile to have sad she looked.

"It's been so fun. I can truly and fully tell you that i love you. I really do, Lisa. You've grown the most precious part in my heart." She continued, my mind already roaming through the worst scenarios possible.

"Jen, what are you trying to say?" I was pushy now. Absolutely terrified to ask that because i never wanted anything bad but i hoped for this horrible feeling to be gone after she explains what's wrong.

"We decided on the relationship because we loved each other. We've came far, really far and almost got to the point to be open with the public. But Lisa, it hurts to even think about this, it hurts for me to say it and i really don't want-" Her sentence broke apparted as her eyes teared up completely, causing her to sob.

The seconds after, i knew what was coming. My heart felt it all. I watched her cry and try to gather herself back together but i was frozen. Constantly repeating the same sentence in my mind. Please, don't say it.

"We should apart. Lisa, i know i'm not giving you a reason right now nor was there ever one obvious but i have no choice."

I never thought that a few words could shatter someone so much. But it did.

"Jennie, tell me all the lies you want. Tell me the most untrue things. Tell me that you fucking love me even if it's fake but please don't make this decision." I stared at her with the most betrayed look.

"Jennie, i love you." I blurred the words out, being on the most thinnest edge from falling down completely.

"I love you more, Lisa but we can't be together. I'm sorry."

My eyes filled with tears as i gazed at her. I couldn't believe it. Was this really happening? Was i really about to lose the person that kept a light in me? The person that i thought felt the same.

"Why? Jennie." I pushed the questions out, lost about why she is doing this. "I'm sorry. I can't. I don't have a choice." She stood up but i didn't take my eyes off her.

"Are you scared of the fans? Love, we can be okay with keeping it to ourselves. It doesn't matter what they would of thought anyway." I spoke while standing up myself.

"Lisa, i can't tell you more. I'm so, so sorry and guilty for all this. I want to love you. I want to hold you but-" She really couldn't take it further from bursting out crying again.

I felt numb by now. I watched her turn around and walk to the front door, slowly picking the coat off the hanger and grabbing her bag. The sight of her disappeared as she closed the door.

My body dropped back down on the couch. I was so empty. So extremely heartbroken. My love for her had never felt more fuller but now she's just officially gone and lost from my touch.

I was aware from her distinct acting lately. Her constant meet ups with friends without me by her side. It was painful already to not have the connection as strong as before but what now.. It's completely gone and for an unknown reason.