When Love Meets The Power ( jenlisa)

9• The First Night [M]

Jennie's POV

Since I was born i was spoiled by my dad and siblings, In their eyes, I was the tender sister who rejoiced when they were happy and grieved when they were sad. My family was more important than my entire life, I was ready to do anything for my siblings or my parents, I was always brave, I didn't let anyone harm my reputation, I didn't allow anyone to break me and wouldn't even dare.

True, Jennie Kim is a shy and sweet girl but she'll became a tigress If someone tried to hurt her. I'm at the end Jennie Ruby Jane kim. But everything turned out in my life, I felt like I was only living in a dream, My life became an unbearable hell after that fateful day. I tried, I swear I tried to smile, I tried to change, But it didn't work, my world was destroyed and it no longer exists. That beautiful universe full of happiness has been swept away by darkness, I no longer feel the taste of life anymore, as if my core were completely frozen, That black cloud kept moving on my sky. The pain took control of My essence and turned him into a body without a soul. A body that eats and drinks to stay alive but lifeless inside, the cheerful soul that was once the happiest woman turned into a broken angel, an angel that doesn't know what to do. My life became colorless, the black dominated my sight, my heart aching in agony every single night, My soul has become a torment that knows no end, My mind was enveloped in an endless fog. I feel like I'm breathing poison that suffocates me every night, a poison that spread out in my body killing it slowly. I feel like I'm walking in complete darkness unaware when I see the light, All I feel is disgust at my broken soul.

After Lisa's offer i felt the Walls of my world crushing down again, Three years trying to revive what left of my broken soul just for her to destroy it with one sentence ' i want you, and i won't rest until i have you ' that sentence keeps replaying in my Head like an madman playing a melody that deafened my ears. And she didn't quite until She broke me again, what was i supposed to do but agree? My family is more important than my life, i can't watch them breaking one by one, i didn't have a choice but to say yes, she took my right to refuse, she snatched the freedom to choose from me, and now I'm nothing after signing that paper. The same paper that broke my life.

Why am just the one suffering? What have I done for the flames of hell to devour my innocent soul? what am i now? Am I really a whore? How can someone like me hand over her body so easily? Don't i have self-pride? Where did my dignity go the moment I made my decision? what happened to the shy Jennie? What I've done for you Lord to punish me like this? Why did you take my pure soul and made me a Lost agonized soul? Why I'm the Only one hurting? Don't i deserve to be happy just for a second, do i have to break at every chance i get? 3 years, 3 years I've been building my confidence again trying to make my body a spirit free of impurities. 3 years trying to smile to life again to forget my agony, Three years that vanished in one sentence.

" Jennie sweetie"

I heard my mom's calling me, i get up and walked towards the bathroom to Wash my face. I don't want her to see my tears

" I'm coming mom" i said with a soft voice walking to my door.  I opened it for her with a smile.

" sorry if I disturbed you, I just wanted to let you know that dinner is ready." She said, smiling, a smile that has always pervaded tenderness inside me

"I'm coming with you, let's go," I said, and we headed together to the dining table, after I sat in my seat i started eating

" Unnie how are you? I haven't seen you in a while, you always come home late," Ella asked

" Sorry sweetie, but you know sometimes the cafe is crowded that i don't even have time to rest. For that I'm always tried and All i wanna do is sleep" i I uttered in a tired voice, my mom noticed and frown sadly, this is what I hate the most, the sadness on my mom's face , and this is one of the reasons why i agreed to be Lisa's sex partner, the money that I'll earn will put a smile and easiness on my parents faces. All i want is seeing my family happy even if it Cost my body, I'm ready for it.