The Tale Of The Taylor's

Chapter 3

Fatima : The little girl from my childhood is continuing to heal everyday. I believe that there is a journey you take when it comes to healing and dealing with trauma. Like emotional neglect and abandonment issues. I take that journey everyday to learn about who I am as a individual. But also learn how to give myself self-love and grace. After I walked out of Ian's apartment, I walked until I made it home to mommy's house. When I got to mommy's house, I just cried myself to sleep. I had so many thoughts that consumed my mind and the biggest thought I had was about keeping Italy.

Malayiah : (looks at Fatima) You wasn't going to keep my niece?

Fatima : At the time, I didn't know if I was going to keep her or not. Growing up in church all my life, you were always taught that abortion was a sin. I always believed in pro - woman's choice; meaning it's a woman's choice since it's her body. And as a woman, she should have the right to choose what she does with her body. So the church people and other individuals in the family couldn't control my decision. As for me, abortion or adoption was my thought. I just didn't want history to repeat itself. I wanted to be able to give my child everything that I never got in life. I always wanted a two parent household for my children; so they wouldn't feel the pain that I felt. The pain and hurt of not having a present dad. I didn't want Italy to have to endure that pain.

Malayiah : What made you decide to keep her?

Fatima : I decided to keep her, because I couldn't bring myself to get rid of her. I also decided to keep her because I had people there for me in my corner. I love Italy with my whole heart. We bonded with each for nine whole months. Hearing her heart beat intertwine with mines, made me happy to know that I had another individual to love me. I actually enjoyed my pregnancy, despite the situation with Ian. My biggest blessing and aspiration out of my life is Italy. Everything I do within my life, is to always make sure that my daughter is happy. I spent the last five months of my pregnancy pulling myself out of depression. Moving to Atlanta, after I gave birth to her was one of the best decisions I ever made. Six months after me giving birth to her, all my friends wanted to do a get away.

Malayiah : So is this where you get to lake house situation, of where you started dating Zac?

Fatima : -chuckles- That was not my man then, but yes. The lake house was the house that started the journey of us seeing each other. Let me finish so I can get to that part. Very impatient much.

We drove 20 minutes away from Georgia to Cumming, Atlanta. The lake house we went to is owned by Andi's parents. But they never used the lake house considering that Andi's mom is afraid of water.  When we got to the house we all picked rooms and everyone except me begin fixing themselves a drink. I couldn't indulge because I was still exclusively breastfeeding Italy. As time progressed, we were playing charades, uno, 21 questions, and they even played spicy truth or dare drinking edition. I was the host of that game. And after a while, it was pretty late.

                       |Lake House Living Room|

Lori : (holding up her red cup) Cheers bitches!

Danni : (laughing) Damn it hoes, I'm out of sativa.

Andi : (smiling) Angela brought indica too.

Zac : (sipping his drink) Who the fuck do indica ?

Fatima : (shakes her head) Y'all are all fucked up.

Angela : Well you know, I like to be able to get the best sleep of my life.

Lori : Bitch you do that in replacement of you not being able to get the best dick of your life.