I made a mistake, a huge one.
Today is the 4 month "anniversary" of my moms death. Its really hard for me to let her go. I don't want to accept that she's gone, I can't accept it. Everyday I feel like I die a little bit more.
My mistake was drinking again. I know better I was an alcoholic, I recovered though. Through all of this though I've been wanting to and last night I couldn't resist the urge. It was eating away at me. But I caught myself after he first drink and I walked away. I couldn't when it was so close to today, this horrible day.
That's why I'm sorry. Please don't me mad at me.
~Bridget
