C O N T R O L L I N

dont need to fake our issues

Cee and I were still at the studio as he recorded on his songs with this team as I came back inside closing the door shut quietly going over to the couch laying down as I eat my piece of candy I got from the vending machine down the hallway hearing them talk among themselves

"I love how this sounds" the guy says as I over hear them "keep it like this" he adds "yeah I should huh... seems more nostalgic" Cee says to him "we can take a 30 give us some time to chill" Cee says as they agree before separating from each other

"Baby?" I hear Cee say as I don't move watching my favorite show on my phone ignoring him as he comes over to me sitting down looking up at them as they head out the door feeling him rub on my leg staying quiet as I continued watching my show "see ya" the guys says as he walks out closing it going past the door "you don't hear me?" Cee ask me as I feel him grip my ankle hard to get my attention "ow" I say as I sit up forgetting about my phone looking at him moving my legs away bringing them up to my chest looking at him "don't bring that shit to my workspace" he says to me harshly putting his arm behind the couch

"I didn't even do nothing" I say lying to him as he stays quiet then answers his phone "who's that?" I say seeing it was some chick calling him up "chill it's just spice she's suppose to be coming in to do a song with me" he says like it's nothing as he answers getting up but I lean forward grabbing his hand to pull him back down "yeah yeah that's fine-.." he stops to look back at me and moves his arm away walking off from me as I get up following him listening to him closely "bye" he says smiling then hangs up putting his phone in his pocket looking up at me

"She prolly can't even come .. what you acting out for you scared I'll leave you for her" he says with no emotion as I look away then I go and sit back down going back to my show "watching too much tv anyways need to come interact with us" he says talking away as I tune him out "you hear me?" He says as my eyes start to water lying to him "yeah" I say wiping my eyes real quickly "what's the matter?" He ask me coming over to me to get a better look at my face as I avoid eye contact "look at me.." he says being nice to me now "I'm good bro please" I say but he takes my phone out my hand and gets on top of me kissing me "I'm sorry" he says as I move my head and he follows me giving me another kiss "baby" he says sitting me up holding me in his arms "your not sorry at all you keep on with the bullshit" I say to him as he wipes my eyes staring at me "I told you I'm sorry" he says acting as if I'm suppose to care "that's all a lie to make you feel better" I say rude as he lets me go getting up "you always do too much-" he pauses catching himself from saying something stupid then goes to the other side of the room getting in the booth closing the door as I sit up looking away and wipes my eyes before anyone sees me

30 minutes later

His friends came back and they finished up as I got the chance to leave the room going down the hallway for a minute to get some alone time away from the racket

I continued down the hallway getting halfway down it I hear a door open but I don't look back "aye!" I hear Cee voice as I turn around stopping in my tracks "where you going?" He says looking at me "I was just getting a minute to myself" I say putting my phone in my pocket as it got silent "nah come back inside" he says as I stand there "no I'll be back in 5" I say taking several steps as he comes out closing the door walking down the hallway to me as I walk a little faster before he caught up to me opening another door going down some steps instead of taking the elevator "bitch" I hear him say from a distance as he follows me "your a bitch" I say back as I go down more steps as I keep going "my birthdays tomorrow you wanna make shit about you" he adds as he moves more faster catching up to me getting a hold of my arm pulling me to him "I'm trynna get a minute!" I say as he holds onto my arms as I lock eyes with him "I ain't trynna fight with you in my work place" he says mad "okay and you don't need to be around me right now" I say "we leaving right now" he says out the blue then let's me go "walk .." he says too calm to me as I go down the last flight of stairs opening the door going around the building seeing the car

"You can fix it up I was fine but I'm out my girl tripping on me" Cee says as he's on the phone as I get inside the car slamming the door then buckled up as I hear him outside the car then gets in after hanging up "I wanna get some food" I say to him "fuck you and that food" he says turning the ac on in the car then speeds out the parking lot onto the road making me move side to side "calm the fuck down in trynna get home safe and I'm hungry so stop some where" I say looking at him like he was crazy "we got good at home now shutup" he says turning up the radio full blast as we drive back home to the house
"Don't start no bs when we get home just do you stay away from me I got things to do ... oh I'm leaving with my friends" he says dropping the bomb on me "I'll do whatever I wanna do Cee" I say calling my friend up "hey pick me up" I say as he turns into the driveway looking at me waiting for me to end the call which I stayed on it longer

"Of course babes I'll see you ... okay" I say before hanging up as he snatch the keys out the engine "bye" I say getting out the car closing the door as he does the same following me into the house after I unlocked locked the door going straight to the room laying down kicking off my shoes as I close my eyes hearing him doing stuff in the room falling asleep before it was time for me to go with my friend