IM TRYING - Enemies To Lovers - Tom Kaulitz

3- what the hell

i woke up to the loudest alarm there ever was. today it rung deep inside my body, most likely because i was hungover. i got up slowly, my head pounding.
"Shit what happened." I mumbled to myself. My mom still wasn't home, but I had school today, and i needed to get ready since school started at 8:00 and it was 7:40.

i slipped on a pair of low waisted shorts which were so short my ass almost slipped out. i wore a pink spaghetti strap top with it and some converse. i suddenly remembered that i had kissed Tom last night. Wtf!? I couldn't believe myself i almost slapped my face. that wouldn't help anything though. i accessorized and grabbed my purse. my hair was in a high messy ponytail. i hurries down the stairs and walked to school. as i was walking, i heard fast footsteps behind me. i looked behind my shoulder, keeping my medium pace. it was Tom. it was weird, he only glanced at me then just looked past me. i walked to the side of the sidewalk as he rushed past me. his warm scent sent a shiver down my spine. what happened? he didn't even talk to me, as if i didn't just make out with him completely last night.

—AT SCHOOL—
"Hey Kris!" said Janine. i frowned at her and she tilted her head in confusion.
"What's up buttercup?" She asked.
"Nothing.." i said, avoiding her eyes.
"Kris hon, trust me, ive known you since birth basically. i know when you're upset." She said. I looked up as Tom walked past us, staring at me blankly.

"And ive known you long enough to know who's bothering you." She said, not taking her eyes off of Tom, who now talked amongst his friends.
"Should i talk to him? Because i swear if i do, ill show him whos gonna be sad-" she said.
"No! It's whatever Janine. Leave it, it isnt even bothering me that much." I said. I leaned on my locker. Janine tilted her head even more to match mine. She cupped my face.

"Oh youll be ok don't be a big baby." She said squishing my cheeks and giggling. I laughed. The bell rang and i got my books and shut my locker. Janine ran to Bill. She had the fattest crush on him since forever. He looked back at me and smiled. I think he liked her too, I wasn't sure but I was definitely going to ask him today. When Janine saw Bill, it's as if someone turned the lights up in her eyes.

—IN CLASS—
i was in Math, and i sat behind Tom in Math. I couldn't help but remember our little thingy from last night. I think i had feelings for him, that i liked him too much to just be a hook up or a make-out buddy. i couldn't though. i wanted to but i didn't want to. that's when i kept hearing my name and snapped out of my thoughts. Everyone was staring at me. had i said my thoughts out loud?

"Kristina!! Can you please answer the question. For the last time. What is x divided by 4 subtracted by 8?!" Asked my math teacher, Ms. V. I had to really think about it. I was honestly super dumb at math. Looking into Tom's eyes directly didn't help, and what made it worse was that his eyes didn't even look at mine. Ms. V tapped her foot impatiently as i thought.
"Uhh.. x-32 over 4?!" I blurted. I didn't know if that was correct, i just saw it on some kids paper.
"Correct Ms. Becker." Said Ms. V, sighing. I let go of my breath. Tom along with everyone else turned back to the board. His sharp brown eyes made a mark in my skull. If i saw his eyes anywhere, i'd know them straight away. I bit my pencil as the class continued.

—LUNCH—
i grabbed the lunch tray. today was a chicken sandwich and a grape juice. I grabbed the tray then threw it away, the chicken always tasted like cardboard. i saw Tom walking away from the cafeteria, which is where everyone was. I followed him, I needed to ask him what was up. why would he ignore me the whole day and not even look at me? i followed him quietly and saw where he was going. i never knew about this place he was going to. it was behind the slim cracks near the school. a secret patch of land with a bench and flowers. the view was beautiful. he sat on the bench, cupping his face. this place was between two brick walls of the school. I peeked through the cracks. he sniffles and wiped his cheek. what happened? i slowly walked into the secret area. his head was still in his hands, his dreads resting on his shoulder. the grass crinkled under my converse.

he looked up at me and sighed.
"Oh it's you." He mumbled. i sat next to him rubbing his back. he arched his back, letting my hand fall behind him.
"Ok Tom what the hell!? Did i do something?! Why have you been avoiding me and acting like im some freak disease?" I said. he just looked at me, his beautiful brown eyes red and glistening in the light from tears.

"I haven't been avoiding you Kristina." he said softly crying in between words.
"Then what have you been doing genius!? You just blankly stare at me as if i did something!" I yelled.

"Stop fucking yelling at me Kristina!! We can't talk. We can't kiss, talk, or even look at eachother Kristina." He yelled, now standing over me.

"What?" I said sternly.

"We aren't supposed to even be close to friends. I'm supposed to be your rival, the guy you hate the most." He said.
"Yeah but i dont hate you." I said softly. I stood up and reached for his red face. I wiped away his tears from under his eyes as he just stood there blankly.

"I'm not supposed to like you. You're supposed to be annoying and fucking repulsive Kris." He said taking my hand away from his cheek and resting it at my side.

"I'm sorry Kristina. I'm really sorry." He said. He let go of my hand, walking away. Tears welled in my eyes. I couldn't cry because we still had to go to class but I couldn't shake what he said. We were supposed to be enemies. I figured id just bury my feelings for him deep down. He didn't care, why should I? After a while i returned and finished the school day.