Help me.

☆Chapter 1☆

A/n: I did this while watching friends so like yea sorry for any misspellings and stuff. Also if u ever feel like this make sure to tell someone i know its ard but im sure its for the best! Stay safe :)

Tw: Self harm, mentions of eating disorder, swearing- idk if there r anymore triggers so just beware if u get triggered easily

Jisung pov:

Slowly tears roll down my cheeks as i tightly bandage my arm, hissing at the pressure. Blood seeps through so i add another layer. Shit, i think to myself, i cut too much; but it felt so good. Once done, i sigh leaning my head backwards against the bathroom door.

'Jisung? Are you there? You've been in there for a while. Are you ok?' My eomma yells through the bathroom door, knocking on it.

Heart lurching to my mouth, my head feeling light i roll my sleeves down. Wipe my tears away and flush the toilet, turning on the tap, putting on a fake smile. 'Yes eomma, im ook. Just got carried away on my phone' i reply, then walking out of the bathroom.

'Remember you have have school tomorrow' she says.

'Yes yes eomma, my bag is ready and my clothes are layed out' i tell her to calm her down but really just reassure myself.

'Good, dinner just arrived, its Chinese take away your favourite' she replies.

'I'm really not hungry eomma sorry' i force out of my dry mouth trying not to throw up on the thought of food. Hurridley i race back to my room, put my headphones in and lay on my bed; blasting music.

-TIME SKIP TO MORNING-

BEEP. BEEP. (alarm clock noises idfk)

'Ugh' i groan turning my alarm clock off and rolling out of bed, trudging to my bathroom. Cautiously I unwrap my my bandages, grimacing at the sight. Feeling light headed i reclean and dress my cuts and get ready for school.

'Morning' i greet my eomma about to walk out of the door.

'You got everything?' she asks.

'Yes eomma, good bye' i smile forcefully, walking out of the house to my best friend felix; who is waiting in his car for me.

Grimacing i sit in the passanger seat, 'Hi Lix' i gush flashing him a smile.

'Hi Ji' he replies, monotonley (a/n i swear this is a word but it sounds weird so idk..)'what happened'.

Sickness and discomfort drown me in huge waves, Felix is the only one who knows i self harm. He knows that when i wear longsleeves it means i relapsed. Just because he's my friend and all doesnt mean i dont feel sick to my stomach when i have to talk about it.

'I'm sorry' I burst into tears sobbing as felix stops the car to console me.

Grabbing my face in his hands he makes me look at him. His blue eyes soothing me as he wipes away my tears. Then he softly pecks my nose smiling. 'It's ok you dont have to tell me, lets go to school yea?'

'Yea, ok thank you' i sniffle.

A/n: first book what do you think. ^x^

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