My Story

The Feeling

Now high school, was worse then middle school a lot of bullies, people are just fucking mean in general. I had friends but I also had enemies. It hurt more then I thought it would go see my ex and his new girl around school all the time. Did he notice me? Oh yeah he did he would stare at me everytime we would walk past each other in the halls.

I moved on though, met this boy who delivered newspaper around my neighborhood, now we're moved out of the trailer at this point and I now have another little sister, this boy I fell for hard. I didn't think I would but I indeed did. At night when he would walk around delivering newspaper I would go with him, he made me feel safe and warm, one day he came over and we stayed up until five in there morning, in my parent's basement just talking.

One day when he came over to get me, to deliver newspapers with him my one close friend was over. We all decided to go, shit could be fun with more people, as we're walking then two are getting to know each other. This is when she's trying to come up with a nickname for him and randomly calls him Daddy. She said straight up in front of me that, he was Daddy and she was the baby. This gave me a weird feeling, I didn't wanna act jealous or concerned but, what the actual fuck is all I was thinking.

We get back home and at this point she's added him on Snapchat. Again I don't wanna be the jealous type so I brush it off. He goes home and me and my friend are chillin in my room when he says she's insecure randomly. Then proceeds to tell me that my boyfriend, was sitting there complimenting her making her feel better, and that I was a lucky girl. This is when I start to be insecure and honestly a little hurt. I don't go around complimenting other men, especially not his friends. He was calling her beautiful, and gorgeous, telling her that any guy would be lucky to have her type shit.