Dangerous- (a Before You Exit/Riley McDonough Fanfiction)

Chapter 12: Beautiful Mistake

Diane's POV

Last night was a big mistake.

"So, what's our plan today?" Riley asked, He looks clean with his white v-neck T-shirt I could see more of his skin and his chest and God he looks so attractive.

WHAT THE FUCK DIANE STOP.

RESIST.

I stood up from my seat because if I continue to sit and be forced to face him I might just zone out because I can't stop starring at his face.

"Oh uhh.. hold on, I wrote some things we need to do in my notebook, Let me get it upstairs" I said not even looking at him just looking at the stairs and then I stood up to get it.

"I'll come with you" He said grabbing my wrist softly. His touch sent electricity towards my whole body.

"No, you don't have to. Just wait here" I said shaking him off as I faded upstairs.

When I was finally in my room I let out a longggg sigh.

DAMN IT RILEY STOP MAKING THIS HARD FOR ME

"Stop making what hard?" a voice said from behind

Oh shit did I just say that out loud?

Its not the voice in my head its a real voice 😳

Of course a voice owned by Riley McDonough

"I thought I told you to stay downstairs?" I said changing the topic

"Yeah but I didn't want to stay so I followed you here and then suddenly you bursted out" He said with a smugly look

"I did not notice I said it out loud okay and besides you creep, I didn't know you were here" I defended

"Yeah but you still thought of it so what do you mean Diane? Because I think you and I both know that you're making this harder for me" Riley said with a mischievous grin and he was coming closer and closer to me with every word he spoke until I actually stumbled with the walls behind me.

"I-I.." I couldn't say anything

He pinned me to the wall, our face inches apart. He starred into my eyes looking for answers, All I did was stare back at him. He looked so beautiful and in this moment all I wanted to do is to kiss him but I thought about it. Maybe thats what he wanted me to do, thats why he isn't making any move, He wants me to make the first move to show my affection towards him, He's basically throwing himself at me but I couldn't and I won't. I know better than this.

I finally took the courage to speak.

"Riley get off me" I said and pushed him off but his grip was too strong

"Riley what the hell!" I exclaimed still being pinned back to the wall

"Not until you tell me whats going on" He demanded

"Nothing is going on" I managed to say straightly

"I know there's something going on between us, so why are you holding back?" He said starring directly to my eyes

"Riley, nothing is going on between us. You need to snap out of it." I said nastily that even I'm disgusted with my lies

"You're lying to yourself and you know it." He said

How can he read me so easily?

"Riley, I'm sorry but I don't feel the same way about you. That kiss means nothing to me. I am done with this." I shouted my lies and even myself couldn't believe it but I think Riley fell for it. His head faced down and I can see his eyes shimmered with tears. I was breaking inside, A part of me wishes I could confess my feelings for him but an even bigger part of me is saying I'll just hurt him even more, And I don't wanna hurt him anymore. With all my force and with all Boomer taught me about karate and self-defense I used it all to push Riley off of me and Thank God it worked, Because I can't say anymore lies even if I try.

He walked out of my room and then I cried. I just let it all out.

After what feels like forever but actually just been three hours of me crying, My phone rang.

Its from my uncle.

I tried my best to hide my crying voice.

Me: "Hey Uncle Ben"
Uncle Ben: "Hi Diane, I just called to make sure you're doing okay"
Me: "I'm fine, thanks"
Ben: "Are you sure? you sound like you've been crying and I know you Diane, you never cry. If this is about your Dad, I've told you, You don't have to do this. Your father is a jerk and if he wasn't my best man I'll say he deserves to be in jail. He used to be a good man y'know? People change and he didn't change for the better, he changed for the worse he can ever be. I'm just helping for you and not for him, I think its time he learns his lesson."
Me: "I know that Uncle Ben, but I'm not crying about Boomer. Its a different reason."
Ben: "What's the reason Diane? You know you can tell me."
Me: "Eh, Its kind of embarrassing"
Ben: "Its about a boy isn't it?"
Me: "Hey! how'd you guessed that so easily!?"
Ben: "Come on Diane, I've been through all that too besides my sister cries about boys all the time back in the day"
Me: "How did you get her to stop crying?"
Ben: "Well, I helped her solve her love problems and I think I should help you solve yours"
Me: "Okay, well I'm sure you've heard about the boy we've kidnapped. Well I let him go actually the day we kidnapped him but he didn't wanna leave. He said he wanted to help me, at that moment I was so desperate because I was alone so I agreed. So he's been staying with me for a while, he's been helping me and I did got to know him and I like him. He made me feel like I'm normal like I'm not a criminal that I'm also just a girl like any other girls. I think I might even love him Uncle Ben but then Boomer called me and he said after Riley- thats his name- will help me get him out of jail, I'm not allowed to see him anymore or else he'll hurt him and I don't want that. So I pushed him away. He told me he loves me but I rejected him. I know I've hurt him but he has no idea how the pain I gave him is doubled to what I'm feeling. It hurts Uncle Ben and I don't know what else to do"

I didn't notice that tears were already covering my cel and my whole face. I couldn't stop crying.

Ben: "I can't believe the little girl I used to walk to playgrounds is now in love and is heartbroken. Don't get me wrong I'm still overwhelmed with all this but what I can tell you Diane is to follow your heart. Yes, I know that sounds overly used and overly cliché"
Me: "It is"
Ben: "But hear me out, You shouldn't listen to Boomer, or to your brain. Life is too short and you're young so go! Fall in love, get your heartbroken and get it fixed back. Falling in love is one of the most beautiful things in the world and you shouldn't miss it. Don't be scared of the future because you create your future. After all if you're meant to be then you can live your happy ever after but if not well you can say; I fell in love once and it was beautiful. The fun of it isn't the result, its the experience, the journey. So go on Diane. Follow your heart and make memories you'll never forget."
Me: "Thank you so much Uncle Ben, that really means a lot. I really wish you were my Dad."
Ben: "Don't mention it"

He said and I hang up.

I think I know what to do.