Ashes to ashes
Blood to blood
Pain to scream
Roaring and thrashing
Crying and crashing
Bruised and broken
Words wished unspoken
Little lines on pale skin
Little rivers of red
Beading and bleeding
Raw and stinging
Steel bites and cuts
Cold white tile now stained pink
Swiping and scrubbing
Try to remove any traces of that day
Tears mix with pink soap
Trying to find a way to cope
My chest is tight
Struggling to take in air
Ragged and heavy
My heart pounds in my chest
My throat feels tight
sitting all alone in the pale moonlight
Sorrow to sorrow
Pain I did not barrow
I just want it to stop
My body feels like it's on fire
Every inch burning and consuming me
I can't find the strength to put the flames out
How do I tell them I'm coming undone
How do I say nothing can extinguish this
It's worst than before
Sitting all alone in the pale moonlight
I can still feel her loosing her warmth
Her breath is shallow and uneven
Different color eyes share the same dying look
Begging for her to stay with me
Screaming for help
No one is coming
I got there too late
I am covered in her blood
I feel her go limp
Her blue and brown eyes gloss over and I am alone
I think I screamed till my throat bled
Cried enough for a decade
Then I heard her door open and her mom walked in from a hard day at work
How do I explain what happened
She screams and calls her oldest daughters name
I am a stranger in my body
She hugs me close and sobs with me
We're both covered in blood
How do I express my sorrows
How do I talk
Am I dead too
Why is this so hard
The funeral was the worst watching her be buried in a color she hated
When I looked at her all I could remember was her smiling up at me and telling me everything was going to be alright
Her little sister is the same age she was
I see her when I look at the younger girl
It makes me want to cry and hug her
Because I know she thinks the same when she looks in the mirror.
I don't think I'll ever get her out of my head
